Lottie hides her loneliness in the night curtain

by doudouqaj on 2011-10-15 15:55:15

Qi Wei: Hiding Loneliness in the Nightfall

In your heart, tears flow, and loneliness can only be hidden behind the nightfall.

Qi Wei is a woman who remains calm in chaos. Divorce was not her destiny, yet overnight, her quiet life was completely destroyed. Her husband left and never returned. She did not lose control; instead, she simply told her four-year-old son that from now on, they would spend their days together, even though he could not fully understand.

Initially, Qi Wei did not tell her parents the truth. Every time she took her son to visit them, she acted as if everything was normal. She ate family reunion meals and happily talked about their daily lives, always saying her husband was on a business trip. The sorrow in her eyes had already been noticed by her parents, but they couldn't bear to mention it.

She sold the house that brought her pain and moved with her son to live with her parents. When she was busy, her parents could take care of him.

Using the money from selling the house, Qi Wei invested in a gym and became a yoga teacher. Although her share was small, the gym's business improved significantly due to her involvement. Many people came specifically for this beautiful instructor. Qi Wei's resilience, displayed in her every move, inspired everyone around her. A friend told her, she had become more beautiful.

Due to Qi Wei's excellence, a fitness club in Urumqi wanted to hire her as a senior consultant and include her in their shares. Qi Wei was interested. She wanted her son to have a worry-free future and to earn more money than before. Alone, she left Altay for Urumqi, starting anew in this city with promises to her son.

In the blink of an eye, her son had started elementary school. Over the years in Urumqi, due to intense industry competition, her son hadn't seen her for a long time. Her parents called to tell Qi Wei that the child often called out for his mother in his sleep because he missed her so much. After hearing her mother's call, Qi Wei took leave and returned to Altay.

Qi Wei kept shuttling between these two cities. Once, when her son fell ill, she rushed home and cried all night hugging him. This time, she decided to bring her son with her, so her parents wouldn’t worry too much. But just then, the gym thought Qi Wei wasn't responsible enough at work. If things continued like this, they would ask her to step down. Without this job, it meant starting all over again, and her son's future life would lose its security.

Helplessly, Qi Wei told her parents everything. They assured her not to worry, as they were her strongest support. To keep her job, Qi Wei once again worked hard, doing better than before. Whenever she missed her son, she looked at his pictures.

A few days ago, Qi Wei suddenly received a call from her son: "Mom, you focus on your work there. I don't cry anymore. Grandma told me, you will definitely come and get me, and I will wait patiently for you to come back." After hanging up the phone, Qi Wei told herself that next year’s Spring Festival would certainly be a true family reunion. There will always be her longing there.

Because of yearning, one chooses to travel far. Because in choosing strength, you are destined to choose solitude. Because of loneliness, one must be strong. In times of uncertainty, rely on faith to guide the way forward. In times of being alone and without help, rely on faith to support the steps towards dreams.