Sometimes I feel wronged... because he can't always be by my side... He's always so busy...
I also bought a hat for our son... yellow... It's not that I like this color, but I hope our son can always be happy. When he wears it, he should look lively and cute. I want him to be happy every day. Yellow can brighten up someone's mood and make it more open-minded...
A weary soul... from the moment I met you... started to resonate with the most beautiful music... From that moment on, we walk among the crowds... Love has never left... Together we let each other's promises exist... From that moment... that moment... We will forever open ourselves up to each other...
I like how tightly you hold me, wanting to make me feel suffocated...
I don't know what I want to say. I seem to be angry with you, but after talking for so long, all I said were your good points. I know I have no reason to be mad at you. If I really have to find a reason, it's that I want you to spend more time with me. I want to see you every day, as you said, even if it's just a glance, it would give me peace of mind. I want you to think of me every moment, even though you might get tired, but I still want this. I also want you to go out with me, I know this has to be under certain conditions. But I still hope you could do it for me no matter what. Although I know neither of us need to do that yet. I can't find any fault in you. Maybe the most important reason is that I want to see you... but I can't... Listening to your words on the phone, I think you must feel awkward too... I try to make you feel at ease... but still...
You once told me, wherever I go, I must remember that there is always one heart accompanying me... No matter where you are, you are always with me... We just haven't seen each other for a few days... We've been apart before... Maybe it's really unnecessary to be so weak...
How should I say this? Is it all my fault, or do you really not care...
This way, when I wear it, it will have a different meaning and method for others... I will let you put it on me with your own hands... I will keep it well... I'm waiting for you to help me put it on...
Clearly, we can be very happy, but it always requires effort. Can real dedication ensure no loss?
Sometimes I feel very honored... to meet someone who treats me this way. He always tells me... he doesn't think he treats me well enough...
You gave me warmth... gave me love... gave me many things I didn't have before... Time... is something we need to experience together... With love... love has never left... We have never left... We won't leave... No matter how far we go from each other... We will always exist in each other's world...
After just one day without seeing you... I still miss you so much... Every day I keep checking the messages you sent, looking at our call records...
You're not very good at expressing yourself. You would pull my hand and casually put something you had prepared long ago into my hands, then just smile at me, and I would smile too. But I still told you, you must stay with me at night. You kept smiling. Later, I told you, do as you wish. Even though I knew you had something important at home, I still liked to play little tricks in front of you. In the end, after work, you still came to send me home. Actually, I was secretly laughing behind you. Although later we argued about going out to play. I went home ignoring you out of anger. You called me, I didn't answer. I thought if you called again, I would answer. You did call, and I couldn't help crying, thinking I couldn't be with you made me cry. You always say I'm silly, but actually, I care, I really care. You tell me not to cry, saying there will be a lot of time for us to be together in the future. You say you will definitely take me out to play when you have the chance. I believe what you say... because you've never lied to me.
Sometimes I have a lot of fantasies... two people always being together... always... always...
I don't know where to start. I often see a lot here. Sometimes I even hope I could find my truth here, tell me the outcome, tell me how to choose.
Dear... actually I have a lot to say to you... but every time I see you, I can't say a word... I don't know how to describe everything you've given me, the happiness... I don't know how to express my feelings for you... We'll be together for almost two months soon... Your kindness towards me hasn't decreased... Even though sometimes I still act spoiled or argue with you... it's because I'm thinking of you... It's when I can't help myself that I want you to pay more attention to me... I hope you can understand... I know you will...
Memories of life's details... The time that has passed between you and me...
D loves me very much, but he keeps hurting me. We can't control each other, nor can we control these things. We both knew this from the beginning. Recalling every detail of being with him is like tearing open my wounds repeatedly, leaving me disoriented. All I know is that I've been very happy, and I've been very hurt too.
I cried many times, you wouldn't say sweet nothings, but you told me, seeing me cry makes your heart ache. You don't want me to cry anymore...
I always like the feeling of your fingers intertwined with mine...
I'm always plotting, wanting to argue with you. I don't know why, I always want to see you worried, always want to hear you coaxing me. It seems I've never been so spontaneous. I want to find comfort for all my past grievances in you, and vent all my small tempers in front of you. It seems you've never been angry with me. Every time I'm upset, you never turn away from me. You hold me in your arms, listen to me finish, then tell me I'm being foolish. Tell me you will absolutely not be the way I think you are. Maybe I would be very afraid. But you calm my heart...
Perhaps my past self has shaped my present self... meeting you... these many days... I've thought a lot... all about you and me... but I've never thought of leaving or retreating... no matter what the future holds... I will always be with you... treating you as you treat me... loving everything you love... cherishing everything you cherish... Believe me...
I always think, we are in the same city center, you have your thoughts, I have my resilience. We've hurt each other, but we are still each other's stage...
When I feel extremely happy, painful memories always come back to haunt me...
On rainy days, sentimental rainy days, there are always endless thoughts...
Since August 18th of this year, I started keeping a diary because of D...
These days, it's been raining non-stop, as if heaven is giving us more time to be together...
Today I changed the treasure you gave me, and I feel extremely guilty. I feel like a child who has done something wrong, wanting your forgiveness. I know it was your affection, but because of a sentence from home, I put your affection aside...
I always think... if we hadn't met, what would I be like? How would I face all my issues? But because of you... I avoid nothing...
I'll hang some of my QQ diaries first, they contain my tears and struggles...
I like how you carry me down the stairs, exhausted but relaxed...
It seems like I can see you... missing you... constantly checking my phone... if there are missed calls or unread messages from you, the corners of my mouth will unconsciously rise... I'm smiling... it's a happy smile...
Sorry, but I changed it to something more meaningful for us...
That day I thought we wouldn't see each other for a long time. But the next day you couldn't resist finding me. You used the time after dinner, and we only met for half an hour... For us, it felt like we waited for a very long time... yet it seemed like just a minute...
Sometimes I have silly ideas... He always calls me silly... saying he thinks of me every moment... even if it's just a glance, it gives him peace of mind...
Today you told me, it's me who owes myself, making you unable to accompany me these days. I said it's me who owes you, making you unable to see me these days. I cried talking to you on the phone...
Dear, since being with you... my world has changed... no longer monotonous, no longer lonely... no longer painful... When I feel wronged, you're there with me... When there are family matters, you listen to me... Also, when friends come, you're always with me... Because of you, I no longer fear reunions... With you... I am happy... Because I know, for you, for me... you've already done so much...
I like how you gently caress my face...
My dear, I can't say "love"... To you... I think I shouldn't say "love"... because it's a kind of love that cannot be expressed in words...
I like how candid your eyes are when you look at me... I could look at you for a lifetime, and you would never look away even for a second...
Every day you call me and send me text messages. Every night you say goodnight to me. There was one time you fell asleep and forgot to send it. I waited until midnight and didn't sleep well all night. Another time, you were very tired, you took me home and said you didn't want to send it. I went home and said goodnight to you, telling you not to think of me that day, to rest well. Later, I told you, as long as it comes from the heart, there's no need to deliberately request it. Then I told you, the last person I think of at the end of the day is you, and the first person I think of when I open my eyes is also you. After that, you said goodnight to me every day, never missing once...
Happiness always comes with sadness...
I always think... if you didn't have so many things to do, if you weren't so busy, we could eat together every day. Go shopping together. Be happy together. Be sad together.
Being with D has been one year and two months. From the very beginning, I knew we wouldn't have a happy ending, if we did, it wouldn't be a good one, because reality is like that. Not all lovers end up together. The tragedies in this world far outweigh the comedies. People just hope time can make them forget, until they no longer mention it.