I want to be famous, if I don't become famous soon, I will jump off a building.
Since I was a child, I have always wanted to be famous, and I was determined to become famous by the age of sixteen. Unfortunately, year after year has passed, and sixteen has become something from the last century, yet I am still not famous. People say that success lies in persistence and perseverance. For more than ten years, I have been persisting and striving.
Looking at the internet, one celebrity after another emerges, from痞子蔡 (a famous online novelist), to上海宝贝 (a well-known blogger), to芙蓉姐姐 (an early internet celebrity), to木子美 (a controversial figure), to杨二车那姆…, I am truly anxious as luck has never favored me. On the internet, some people talk, some people strip. To gain fame, some women only wear bras, no outerwear, some only wear underwear, no pants. Some even go as far as wearing nothing at all, showing their bare butts. Others talk about what they do when they're naked while fully clothed. Some reveal not only their own nudity but also others'. Some young unmarried women not only strip completely but also make beastly gestures, disregarding their parents' reputations. They openly challenge society, morality, and the bottom line of popular culture. Their behavior is so savage and bold, rarely seen inside or outside China. You might say this woman's brain is waterlogged. If she wants to expose herself, she should do it artistically. Splitting her legs wide open is too aggressive. Even if she becomes famous this way, people will say she's just stripping for attention. Some people don't care, saying: As long as I become famous, everyone knows me, and I can make big money, so what if I take off my clothes, show my thighs, or reveal some personal secrets?
The logic is sound, but on the other hand, male tigers won't react to seeing a naked female tiger. But humans are sometimes worse than animals. Men react differently to seeing naked women. Moreover, exposing privacy means not only strangers can see, but also children who lack defense mechanisms. We must care about the next generation.
In our hometown, there is a very famous person, known by everyone within ten miles because she is crazy and takes off her clothes anytime, anywhere.
Becoming famous by stripping or relying on sex appeal is no different from being crazy. What's the point of such fame? Therefore, I adhere to a principle: I won't resort to crooked ways. If I'm going to be famous, I want to be known for good reasons, not bad ones, especially for women.
So, although I desperately want to be famous to the point of bleeding, I won't rely on stripping, exposing myself, or taking advantage of my looks. It seems like the only path left for me is to follow the footsteps of Sister Jiang, Liu Hulan, or Sun Ergou. Unfortunately, I was born half a century too late. Being a present-day Sister Jiang, Liu Hulan, or Sun Ergou is harder than being a beast.
If I can't become famous by showcasing feminine heroism or characteristics, what should I do? After thinking for years, I found an answer after Li Yuchun became famous. That is to take a middle path, neither entirely male nor entirely female, or to be a woman between Sun Ergou and those who like to strip, looking both masculine and feminine, then striding confidently onto the stage. With this goal set, I cut my hair short and wore shirts. Unfortunately, my chest is too fat, and no matter how I dress, I can't look as cool as Li Yuchun.
What should I do? When all seems lost, a new path appears. I discovered that doing good deeds can also make one famous. So, I started doing good deeds. I originally planned to help people like Lei Feng, carrying babies or supporting old ladies, but problems arose. When helping carry a baby, people fear you're a child trafficker. Helping an old lady makes me worry about situations like in Nanjing. Times have changed; it's hard to do good deeds now. Not only do I feel awkward, but the people being helped feel awkward too. First, I found that many versions of "The Farmer and the Snake" circulate in society. I don't know if it's due to China's unique social environment, where snakes that learn to bite after being frozen are particularly numerous, or if individual cases have been exaggerated into common occurrences by the media. On the contrary, citizens without religious beliefs, having gone through revolution after revolution (from liberation to land reform to the Cultural Revolution), have become fearless, not fearing heaven above or earth below, but fearing their own kind. This leads to peculiar phenomena: when someone falls into the water, a crowd stands by watching but no one jumps in; when someone meets with a car accident, witnesses don't offer help but instead avoid them as much as possible. People live in their own circles, guarding against each other like wolves. This happens outside and even in homes, fearing unfaithful men and women. Is this a world for humans? How cold is a world without sunlight, warmth, or trust? Therefore, whether or not I can become a celebrity doesn't matter. At least I can still be human, with a human heart rather than a wolfish or numb one. For this reason alone, though I haven't become famous, I still persist in doing good deeds, knowing that becoming famous this way is unlikely.
Time flies, and before I knew it, the calendar flipped to 2010. In 2010, I had a new understanding of fame. On one hand, I still yearned for fame, but on the other, I developed an inexplicable fear and disgust for it, due to兽兽.
Internet users are truly clever, giving her such an apt name. Calling her 'beast' would make us seem crude and harsh, but giving her a human name would make us appear too lenient since she is raping the public's eyes. By selling herself, she has become the epitome of a despicable woman. Naming her '兽兽' shows our tolerance while truthfully placing her in the animal category, achieving both goals perfectly. The person who came up with this name is a genius, and I express my admiration here.
I didn't want to mention her name, finding it a symbol of filth and shame. Every time I went online, I avoided articles involving her. Her name is like dog excrement, making people uncomfortable and unrefined. I thought that such a woman, who contributes ugliness to society and openly tempts the private desires of all men, would be despised. Yet, she actually achieved her goal, becoming increasingly famous and obtaining what she wanted. Society rewarded such filth with wealth. If this continues, traitors will win applause, prostitutes will attract attention, and contributing ugliness to society will bring high rewards. There may be followers.
If兽兽's behavior occurred in a Muslim society, she would surely be stoned to death. In a Christian society, millions of people would pray for God to punish her. Although Playboy seems similar on the surface, the nude bunny girls still provide some aesthetic value. Only in Chinese society, a society claiming five thousand years of cultural heritage and filled with spectators, could she become such a rare flower, blooming for so long. When a foul-smelling ugly flower blooms, is it you who defiles the flower, or the flower that defiles you?
Before, I wanted to be famous, and for a period, I even thought about jumping off a building if I didn't become famous. But now, when I think about fame, all I can do is sigh deeply.