This night, it rained again in Beijing. I remember someone said that breakups always happen on rainy days. I even laughed and said that people also breakup when it snows. Those days of happiness, will they be washed away from my memory just like the sudden rain? Bamboo said, "You are not selfish, you are just weak." Yeah, I know you are just making excuses for me, Bamboo. No one understands myself better than me. I am too selfish. Selfish to enjoy others' goodness without giving any reward back. Yes, I want to be loved by you, but I don't want to love you. I only love myself. You always think I'm not worth it and mention those men I've met. I can't help it, I can't make a choice. As time goes by, I get used to his presence. It's not that I refuse to believe your accusation on him, it's that I don't trust anyone. Anyone may deceive me, even if he says how much he loves me. I said I have cried tears for you twice, once happily and once sadly. Actually, it was a lie. That night, my eyes were swollen from crying. The time spent with you is short but happier than being with him. Sometimes I ask myself why I chose him instead of you. I don't know. Sorry, I'm so despicable and greedy, wanting both of you. But they are right, I would end up losing both. I don't want to lose everything. I thought you would be stronger than me. Maybe I am too mean. Haha, greedy woman. After you left, I suddenly realized there was so little between us to miss. The only thing I could recall was that time by the lake when I joked and asked you if I jumped in, would you jump in after me. You didn't answer, Louis Vuitton, because you fell asleep. But it's better this way, let me stay peacefully with another man. I guess I am too capricious. Capriciously knowing you, capriciously falling in love with you, capriciously leaving you. You are truly foolish and dumb to wait for a woman like me. So foolish that it makes me want to cry. After this song of departure, it finally ends with everyone parting ways. Related articles: My fame has caused me a lot of trouble Gianni Versace, a life lived as a 90s fashion icon What else is on my mind