Last night, once again, I couldn't sleep at all. For the past five years, I've lost count of how many nights like this I've had where insomnia kept me awake. The feeling of lamenting over sleepless nights has long been numbed, but at least insomnia is a kind of mood...
I've never been too enthusiastic about using mobile phones. Perhaps it's because I rely more on the internet that I'm not as attached to my phone. In the past, for old Bali, a mobile phone was merely used for making calls when away from the computer; text messages were rarely used. If I really needed to use them, I would still go back to my computer and connect my phone to send or receive messages. Recently, I've been deeply immersed in Tencent Weibo. Since Weibo supports mobile posting, I've developed a great interest in smartphones. This is why I spent the whole night fiddling with my Dopod S700 phone - reinstalling the Windows Mobile 6.1 operating system, upgrading ROMs, installing a bunch of applications like UC Browser, CallTone, mobile QQ, GPS navigation... until there was nothing left to play with. Who would have thought that this pseudo-IT engineer, old Bali, would develop such a strong interest in mobile phones? Ha ha, quite amusing.
After messing around with my phone, with nothing else to do and still unable to sleep, I finally got around to watching "Du LaLa's Promotion Diary," which I had downloaded days ago. Despite the significant "controversy and heated discussions" this movie received online, I found it worth watching. Although it may not be particularly deep, at least it doesn't cause visual fatigue, nor does it require much thought into its deeper meaning. Just treating it as eye candy is pretty good.
After finishing Du LaLa, dawn broke. Climbing up to the rooftop to enjoy the breeze and look at the Dasha Mountain bathed in morning light was quite pleasant...
Back at the computer, I still couldn't sleep. This insomnia is indeed quite severe. What can you do? You can't stop living just because of insomnia, right? Ha ha. Of course, one can't just sit there staring at the computer early in the morning. So, I decided to find something to do. Alright, I brewed a cup of this year's new green tea, sipping the tea while aimlessly typing out these few lines of heartfelt words.
A few days ago, I heard Chen Rui sing "Last Night" in a friend's car, and I quite liked it. I enjoy this "rascally" tone, and I also like melodies that sound leisurely but are actually more melancholic upon closer listening. It makes one feel relaxed after hearing it, as if the meridians are unblocked...
"Still remember last night when I pushed open this door, the main characters inside were us, fleeting happiness turned into eternity because we loved each other too seriously. And now, I still push open this door, but the main character inside is only me. All the memories make me admit, everything you gave me was so complete. But why have you become so strange now? Is it really because there's someone else? If I can no longer make you care, it proves how cruel you've become. You left all the pain to me alone, all the harm stems from loving you too deeply. Don't say we just didn't have fate, I am no longer as naive as before.
And now, I still push open this door, but the main character inside is only me. All the memories make me admit, everything you gave me was so complete. But why have you become so strange now? Is it really because there's someone else? If I can no longer make you care, it proves how cruel you've become. You left all the pain to me alone, all the harm stems from loving you too deeply. Don't say we just didn't have fate, I am no longer as naive as before..."
With last night over, another sunny day begins, how wonderful...