When the bloom of youth fades, emotional ties turn to dust and dissipate like smoke.

by xuaylngflr on 2012-02-09 10:05:49

The层面 of knowledge is like the thickness of an outbreak of prices. You and I are in a hurry, looking for the red and green paper. It is said that the number of people changing their numbers has increased dramatically. A mother's love is still a tree, guarding a home through the years. Yet she still studies hard, reading Tang poetry and Song lyrics, reciting two poems a day, singing them until they are deeply ingrained in her heart. When a person makes a mistake but cannot release themselves from the shadow of regret, it means they are not forgiving enough towards themselves and thus cannot capture hidden truths beyond appearances.

Silent QQ notifications began to ring out; a message from someone: "I've changed my number, add me." I thought of the warm and humble blind doctor across the small bridge, the hearty aunt selling steamed buns at the end of the bridge, the delicious aroma of pancakes from the stall by the bridgehead, and the scorching yet sweet taste of roasted sweet potatoes on the handcart.

Just waiting for life to naturally wither away. Initially, I only knew she was the principal of a primary school in a small town.

"At one time, brewing a cup of West Lake Dragon Well tea, a drink said to calm the mind, we drank together by the window, listening to the sound of the sea, watching the sun as red as blood, counting the ease of years and the passage of time." Back then, as the executive director of an investment company, I lived in a nearly 500 square meter villa, drove a quiet luxury car, controlled millions of dollars in funds, truly commanding the winds and reveling in success. To speak of its wonders, perhaps this counts as one: when facing strangers, we still feel somewhat uneasy, hesitant to subdue them too harshly, fearing being bitten without knowing if it’s poisonous.

So sometimes I am pleased with my role as a stranger to others, because I know I don’t have much weight, yet I can hide behind the mask of a stranger and give myself inner fearlessness. That feeling is truly good.

I count the rings of the years, remembering those etched in my heart, avoiding those lingering in my arms. Do you know what our supervisor said to me before retiring? "What?" "She said, believe in her vision, you may lack the talent to lead armies, but you will surely be a great general who can assist a commander."

I sighed, always able to understand my heart. Like a withered yellow leaf standing high on a branch, watching the sunset fade further and further away; like a solitary boat, unable to see or hear, yet truly drifting in the boundless dust of the world.

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"Our coal mining machine update, due to parallel operations, with two units starting simultaneously, greatly shortened working hours, restoring production 41 hours ahead of the original plan."

I became lonely and silent.

Feelings do not grow stronger with the accumulation of days but become weary with thoughts of inevitability, becoming worthless. Our youth was quietly stolen, and within this gradually distant river, the happiness, joy, sadness, and pain we once possessed have silently sunk. Perhaps such genes exist deep within us, manifesting unconsciously.

A person wanders alone, feeling emotional wounds, indulging in the world of characters, not wanting to leave, only wanting to be oneself through words and express emotions.

Thumbnail: Title: Dust and Smoke, Drunken in the Sea of Words Content: Red dust and fireworks, memories rooted in my heart, making me reminisce from time to time, all because of an angelic dream. Worldly affairs, how could the years flow by? Youth fades, emotional ties turn into dust like smoke. It neither resists nor escapes, allowing suffering to torment itself, letting its own blood flow like a river, until it is almost dead, until life withers away.

"This time, we updated the coal mining machine, using parallel operations where two units started work simultaneously, significantly reducing working hours, and restored production 41 hours earlier than originally planned."

I became lonely and silent.

Feelings do not intensify with the accumulation of days but grow weary with thoughts of inevitability, becoming worthless. Our youth was quietly stolen, and within this gradually distant river, the happiness, joy, sadness, and pain we once possessed have silently sunk. Perhaps such genes exist deep within us, manifesting unconsciously.

A person wanders alone, feeling emotional wounds, indulging in the world of characters, not wanting to leave, only wanting to be oneself through words and express emotions.

Thumbnail: Title: Eating Snakes Content: I am afraid of snakes, yet I have eaten snake a few times. The waiting during this period seems more worrying than usual. I unintentionally pay attention to the dynamics of the college entrance exam, no longer being the carefree me, no longer being the me obsessed with sleeping and gaming, and no longer being the immature me. I can't really taste anything in the midst of everyone else's lively conversations, but I dare not reveal this. I just follow the crowd and eat quietly, speaking little.

Perhaps so, I'd rather be an unconventional outsider, I'd rather be uniquely ugly than conventionally beautiful, I'd rather be an extra than the protagonist at this moment, I'd rather quietly enjoy my corner than enter the dazzling world, I'd rather guard the dim candlelight than have my world brightly lit.