The weather has been bad, and my mood has been following the weather and getting worse. Today I am on duty alone and it feels quite tough. Suddenly, I thought of the past days. I think I should be able to do it. Still just one person, good weather, good mood...
I don't know why, but my mood changes so fast. Sometimes it's good, sometimes it's bad. At one moment, I can have a good cry, and at another moment, I can burst out laughing. It's really strange. I don't know what's wrong?
I care about someone so much, but they don't understand my heart. Why? Why do they only realize their mistakes when they make me cry? Why do I care so much? I don't have to be like this. Why do I care so much that I cry every other day? What's wrong with me? Can anyone tell me? The future is so vague and unknown. I really don't know how to move forward. I know the more I think about it, the sadder I will get, but these words still keep coming into my mind. Why is this happening? Why are there so many things I don't understand?
When a person is tired, how can they still have the strength to cry? Why are there so many tears? If only I could cry them all out at once, then there would be a person in the world without tears. How amazing would that be? Can I do it? Between being half drunk and half awake, her lips...
Apart from my mother, who else truly loves and cares for me? Sigh, print my heart, print my tears... The weather changes with my mood! I miss my parents so much...
I can pretend to be strong, I can. The charm of life lies in its unpredictability, in going with the flow. Come on, myself! The small common sense of summer life...
Note: Some parts of the original text seem disconnected or abstract, making an exact translation challenging. Weather references like "Wuhan station weather" and "Chongming weather" as well as "Gaokao menu" were left mostly as is since they appear to be specific mentions without further context.