Whether the light ahead is red or green, A Huan insists on walking down the path of becoming a woman. A Huan is a man, 29 years old this year, but since the age of 6, he has dreamed of becoming a woman. On the evening of Qixi Festival, he secretly ran away from Wuhan to Hefei without telling his mother, who was in the late stages of cancer, saying that he wanted to hang out with his "sisters" here and relax. If possible, he would choose to have breast augmentation surgery in Hefei. On the afternoon of August 7, A Huan swallowed 400 estrogen pills, "I can only feel what it's like to be a woman through taking medicine." He told the reporter that he didn't want to hit his sick mother again, but he would continue down the path of becoming a woman.
A 29-year-old man swallows 400 estrogen pills
"Is this the Morning Post hotline? My friend came from Wuhan to Hefei, at 15:18 bought 3 bottles of ethinyl estradiol from the pharmacy, each bottle containing 100 pills, and also had a bottle of soy isoflavone estrogen (100 pills). After buying the medicine, he immediately took it with mineral water right there. Now he is on the lawn opposite the Walmart supermarket on Changjiang East Road. Can you come and see him?"
On the afternoon of August 7, after receiving a call from a reader, the reporter immediately rushed to the scene and saw a man and a woman chatting by the side of the lawn. The man was about 1.75 meters tall, relatively fat, with symptoms of rhinitis, and heavy body hair, while the woman looked fairly pretty, but her behavior was somewhat strange.
After understanding the situation, the man's name was A Huan, 29 years old, graduated from a university in Wuhan in 2005. The woman's name was Huan Na, a man who had undergone gender reassignment surgery. The reason she named herself Huan Na was to express the meaning of restoring her daughterhood. According to her, she and A Huan were in a "sister" relationship.
Upon seeing the reporter, encouraged by Huan Na, A Huan bluntly said: "I want to become a woman, I hope everyone will not discriminate against our TS (transsexual) group."
A Huan introduced that when he was young, he went shopping with his mother, and when he saw women's clothing in stores, he felt very close to them. His mother, who was a middle school teacher, always praised girls for being sensible and always encouraged him to play with girls and be a well-behaved child who doesn't fight. Since he could remember, A Huan increasingly inclined towards being a girl. He often felt that he should have been born as a girl, just that heaven played a joke on him when creating people.
Due to his gender orientation, A Huan frequently encountered setbacks when job hunting after graduation. His favorite and most skilled industry, cosmetics, repeatedly rejected him because he was male or due to his feminine tendencies. In 2006, A Huan's mother was diagnosed with breast cancer (his parents divorced in 2002, and he lived with his mother), and the family's situation became dire. He couldn't escape the enormous psychological difficulties brought by his gender issues and insisted on becoming a woman.
■ Dialogue
Experience - Wearing women's clothes on the road, classmates ignored me
Reporter: When did you realize you liked to be a girl?
A Huan: At 6 years old. When going shopping with my mom, I saw little girls' clothing and thought they were particularly beautiful and familiar. I felt that they should have been worn by myself. But mom didn't buy them for me, and that was the first time I had a concept of gender.
Reporter: When did you first wear women's clothes?
A Huan: At 7 years old. I secretly wore my mom's skirt, which I remember was pale red, and it made me feel especially free. My mom usually liked tying my hair with red silk ribbons; she always regretted not having a daughter. Sometimes she braided my hair, and I loved having braids. I was afraid that classmates would untie my braids, so I always wore a hat. Later, I often wore women's clothes at home or when attending gatherings with TS companions.
Reporter: When was the first time you wore women's clothes in public?
A Huan: During my sophomore year internship, I wore women's clothes on the road. Women's jeans, short white tops, a women's bag, shoulder-length hair. On the road, except for the leading teacher, none of the classmates paid attention to me.
Reporter: How were your relationships with classmates during school?
A Huan: In middle school, I was often bullied by male classmates, saying that I liked to play with girls and disgraced the boys. The most vivid memory was when more than half of the male students in the class surrounded me, raising table tennis paddles and saying "We'll chop you to death!" I was extremely scared. In the end, the female classmates in the class protected me and escorted me all the way home.
Explanation - Taking medicine just to experience the feeling of being a woman
Reporter: When did you start wanting to undergo gender reassignment surgery?
A Huan: At 19 years old.
Reporter: Can your family accept it?
A Huan: At 22 years old, I told my mom about my thoughts. She only had one son, and initially, she couldn't accept it and cried a lot. However, she knew it couldn't be changed and has now accepted it. But other relatives still cannot accept it.
Reporter: When did you come to Hefei? Why did you choose to come to Hefei?
A Huan: I arrived in Hefei on the evening of Qixi Festival because I was particularly troubled. I have a TS sister here, so I came over to relax.
Reporter: Why did you take so many estrogen pills?
A Huan: Because I don't have enough money for breast augmentation surgery, I can only feel what it's like to be a woman by taking medicine, especially the sensation of breast swelling, which is also a kind of emotional release for myself. To become a woman and for society to accept us, I will keep moving forward without hesitation.
Emotion - Had a girlfriend once, but no feelings for women
Reporter: What kind of work have you done before?
A Huan: I used to sell sanitary napkins, intermittently doing it for 5 years. But I am good at makeup and really want to work in the cosmetics industry, but they all refused me because I am not a woman. I think my female intuition is particularly good, and I have a talent for it; I was born to be a woman.
Reporter: Are you of an age where no one has introduced you to a girlfriend at home?
A Huan: Definitely yes, others have introduced a few, but I had absolutely no feelings for them. Then I told them my desire to become a woman, and we naturally broke up.
Expectation - To own a family and children as a woman
Reporter: What difficulties do you have now?
A Huan: First, I don't want my mother to know that I'm still insisting on becoming a woman because my mother is now in the late stages of cancer, and I'm afraid she won't be able to bear the shock if she finds out; second, I can't choose my lifestyle according to my own ideas, and my father opposes it, "Once I become a woman, my father will immediately cut off relations with me."
Reporter: What do you hope society can do for you?
A Huan: I want to call on more people to pay attention to the TS group because we are a vulnerable group in this society. We hope to receive help and care, hope not to be discriminated against by society, and hope to gain recognition. Do you know, some sisters really want to go home during the New Year, but they can't go home because once their families know their situation, their parents will cut off relations with them.
The reporter was worried that he might feel unwell after taking the medicine and kept persuading him to go to the hospital quickly, but A Huan insisted that taking so much medicine was just to experience the feeling of being a woman. Helplessly, the reporter could only let A Huan's friend Huan Na take good care of A Huan.
Xu Yishu, Huang Wenjuan, Li Lihong
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