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After more than 30 years, my life has been a failure on the whole. The main reasons can be roughly summarized as: I'm a bad person among good people, and a good person among bad people! My mother once said: Your generation is actually quite miserable, without fixed jobs, and if you get sick or old, you really don't know what to do! So my mother quietly bought me social security, and by the time I knew it, she had already bought it for over 10 years. Because I was young at that time, I basically didn't take her words seriously. I always thought I wasn't an ordinary person, and I believed that through my own efforts, I would surely have a beautiful life! Since I was a child, I've been engaged in one activity, dreaming of becoming a professional player one day. I won't say what sport it is here because after all these years of effort, it turned out to be a waste, and my heart was broken long ago! Unfortunately, later it was proven that I was wrong, and I was completely wrong! I am just an ordinary person, even less than an ordinary person.
In the early 90s, after graduating from school, my family helped me find a decent job in a private company, but unfortunately, because I was young and didn't know how to please the boss, I didn't last long before being fired. Later, I stayed unemployed at home, which worried my parents a lot! More than a year later, the state-owned factory where my parents worked recruited workers, and without any other options, I had to become a worker too. Despite all the unwillingness I felt back then, I had no choice! After working as a worker for more than two years, the state-owned factory was about to go bankrupt, and I could only be laid off! Without hesitation, I packed a suitcase and jumped on a southbound train, joining the tide of migrant workers.
After arriving in a city in Guangdong, I stayed in a small inn for a night and went out to look for a job early the next morning. Fortunately, in the afternoon, I saw a factory recruiting warehouse managers. With my high school diploma and a decent appearance, I didn’t have to try too hard to be called in to meet the boss.
The boss was a local who spoke very gently. After asking some basic questions, he made a decision and asked the personnel director to take me to the dormitory to settle in. That's how I found my first job, and I worked there for several years!
The salary was quite high, with a base pay of 800 yuan and an overtime fee of 3 yuan per hour. At the time, it excited me greatly! You see, when I was working as a worker in the state-owned factory, I only earned 200-300 yuan a month, and the highest I remember was around 330 yuan. Now it’s 800 yuan! Plus overtime, I could earn more than 1100 yuan a month. In the first month of work, I was constantly thinking about whether the factory would pay wages or delay payments.
The work was not easy; besides recording the inflow and outflow of goods, due to the lack of manpower, I basically had to personally load and unload the goods. The summers in Guangdong are very hot, and after a day's work, I would be drenched in sweat, just like playing a football match! Although it was tough, I cherished this job immensely, purely for independence and survival. I am not dumb and have a bit of education, so I did the warehouse management job rather well. Within a few months, I became familiar with hundreds of commonly used items in the factory! Because of my hard work, all of this caught the boss's eye.
A few months later, the boss opened a branch factory and approached me, asking if I wanted to work in sales at the new factory? Salary plus commission! Without hesitation, I agreed immediately, nodding my head like a spinning top! Thus, within a few months, my salary jumped from over a thousand to several thousand. I still remember the first time I held 2900 yuan in my hand, I cried alone in the toilet! Those feelings, I really miss them!
With money, I started to be extravagant and spent 1600 yuan to buy myself a Nokia mobile phone. In 1999, when pagers were everywhere, owning a mobile phone was already a pretty cool thing! Whenever I received a call on the bus or on the street, I would calmly take out my phone, open the flip cover, and answer... When I saw so many eyes focusing on me, that sense of satisfaction was truly vain! A few months later, my savings exceeded ten thousand yuan, and I still clearly remember how I kept muttering after work: I'm a millionaire! I'm a millionaire! The phrase "millionaire" that I had heard since childhood, I finally achieved today!
In the factory, I met a Sichuan girl named Xiao Li. Xiao Li was very beautiful and fair-skinned. If I were to say why I liked her, it would simply be because of her beauty! Men choose women differently from how women choose men; women choose based on feelings, while men, in most cases, choose based on instinct, especially for a man in his early twenties. To this day, I'm not sure if I truly loved her, but regardless, living together does create some kind of bond. She was very clever and also adorable, cute to the point that during intimate moments, it felt like desecrating something sacred! She was really like a doll or a little fairy! Because I had money, I rented a place outside, and thus we started our two-person world.
She liked doing housework, mopping floors, and washing clothes, and I really liked such women. Because most men aren't clean freaks, if a man lives alone, his place is basically a pigsty! The old saying "men work outside, women manage inside" really makes sense!
There's another sensible old saying: "marriage should be between equals." When I was young, the TV series "The Return of the Condor Heroes" left a deep impression on me, and I watched it many times. Jin Yong, Mr. Louis Cha, ranks first among the people I admire in my lifetime! I still don't understand why he could write about everything under the sun! One of my favorite parts is when Yang Guo wants to marry his master Xiaolongnü, and Guo Jing disapproves, saying: "She is your master, how can you commit such a great sin of marrying your master!" Yang Guo replies: "I respect and love my aunt, and in this life, I will marry no one else but her!" Guo Jing gets so angry that he grabs Yang Guo, wanting to kill him with one palm! When I was young, every time I saw this scene, I got extremely excited! Because when I was young, I was also rebellious, and my view was: As long as two people truly love each other, who cares about societal opinions! Don't TV shows often portray princesses falling in love with poor boys, princes loving Cinderellas? However, as I grew up, I realized I was wrong, and the saying "marriage should be between equals" really makes sense! Xiao Li came from a rural area, didn't read much, and dropped out of junior high school to work. She was very innocent, but whenever I tried to talk with her, I often couldn't find common topics. I care about politics, economics, society, sports, etc., and naturally, those things couldn't be discussed with her. Let's talk about Jin Yong's "The Legend of the Condor Heroes," right? But it turns out she hadn't even heard of "The Legend of the Condor Heroes"! Honestly, at the time, I felt an indescribable sense of disappointment! Thinking about my previous two girlfriends, this situation didn't happen. I thought about why, and finally figured it out: because the family backgrounds and educational levels of my previous girlfriends were similar to mine, so we could talk and connect. Here, I'm not saying anything about girls from rural areas; it's also related to innate personality and intelligence. Some rural girls who come out to work quickly adapt to urban life, but my girlfriend's mind was really too simple, like a child! Some women appear very innocent on the surface, but they have a sultry heart inside! Once ignited, they will never be simple again, and the simplicity on the surface is just a facade. Over the years, my life experiences have honed my ability to distinguish true innocence from fake innocence and sultriness. Xiao Li was truly innocent, innocent to the point where it was hard for me to find excitement during intimacy! And she seemed to have little feeling or interest in it, unless I initiated it, she wouldn't think about it herself, which sometimes made me feel bored! Honestly, I prefer women who have a bit of a flirtatious side, because such women can ignite a man's passion and inspire a desire to conquer! And so, we lived an ordinary life.
The job was very tiring, with endless phone calls and faxes every day. The production at the new factory wasn't smooth either, and when we couldn't deliver the goods on time, we were often scolded by customers. This was pressure! The boss's few thousand yuan wasn't given for nothing. (Moved by past events)