Finally indulged myself and chose to escape. Even if it's just once, even if I have to go back to the same place tomorrow and face reality, at least today, the weather changes with my mood!! I miss my parents so much... I can take a free breath. Dully waiting for the bus under the sign, the bus takes a long time to come. The weather in Wutai County at the end of May is already suffocating. Especially in early summer in Jiangnan, the air is full of humid and stifling heat. Everything seems lazy and lifeless, as in Naiman Banner. Finally, a heavy rain, Bus No. 89 comes slowly and sways. I want to nag a little, but it arrives listlessly after 199 days in Taiwan. There are few people on the bus, some leaning against something, others closing their eyes to rest. Everything seems like this weather, neither clear nor gloomy.
I have no purpose, not knowing what I want to do, wandering aimlessly on the street alone. Picking up my phone, I find there's no one to call. My phone matches my silence, making not a sound.
What's wrong? What's wrong?? For a long time recently, I just want to be alone. I don't want to talk to anyone, yet I feel close to breaking down from my own loneliness; I don't want to do anything, yet I can't bear the boredom; I don't want to think about any problems, yet I'm constantly oppressed by a kind of emotion. Breathing freely, I inhale more of the oppressive and suffocating air.
I don't know if the weather affects my mood or if my mood colors the weather. This is May, early summer, rainy season is coming, in Jiangnan.