After going through difficulties, the leisurely mind can appreciate the miracle of clouds and sails crossing the fields and everyone being immersed in brightness. By this time, I might once again experience the beauty of searching for her among thousands and suddenly looking back to find her by the fading fishing lights. I will hang my fervent pursuits on a tightly locked sail and seek a harbor that is not frozen. I will no longer wait alone because waiting will only fill me with despair and confusion. I don't know which sandbank I will linger on. On that afternoon, while leveling up by killing zombies in a passage, I found myself stuck in a corner fighting zombies fiercely. Then, I noticed a large number of zombies around me changing color inexplicably, and when I killed them, I received no experience points. Dazed, after using so many health potions, I realized I had been doing all the work for someone else's benefit. I was furious. Additionally, I kindly messaged a small nurse (female Taoist) whose level was similar to mine: "Please don't take my experience, okay?" She seemed to ignore it. Not wanting to cause trouble, I changed locations to fight. However, as I was in close combat with the zombies, I noticed she followed and started weaving rainbows over the zombies! I was stunned!
"But I believe beautiful scenery always lies on the next beach."
Back at home, Xinming was lying on the bed. Seeing me return, he sat up and asked: "Have you made up your mind?" But then Tianqing told me that the woman stayed in his room until midnight, took pictures, sent messages, and more. Hearing that the woman seemed interested in him, my feelings towards Tianqing changed. As I was about to get divorced, he still had the mood to talk about others being interested in him! I felt some affection and even imagined scenarios where Tianqing and that woman were sending each other flirtatious glances. My sense of security diminished, and I became restless about the future. I wondered if I loved too blindly and decided I should carefully reevaluate myself and Tianqing.
I couldn’t remember what the ground looked like or recall how sadness felt. I avoided sunlight, fell in love with cloudy days, and became fascinated with windy grounds. When the storm arrived, the heavy gray clouds hung low over the earth. The wind stopped moving, the clouds ceased drifting, the cyclone spiraled downward, and iron birds roared low in the sky. The outside world appeared dark and desolate, with a suffocating feeling pressing against my chest, waiting for the downpour to release everything. Because my mother-in-law had given me some chocolate and water earlier, I began vomiting. A doctor nearby helped clean me up, and I softly thanked him.
I don't remember the color of the ground or the expression of sadness. Avoiding the sunlight, I fell in love with cloudy days and windy grounds. Before the storm, the gray clouds pressed heavily on the earth. The wind didn't move, the clouds didn't drift, the cyclone spiraled downward, and iron birds flew low with roaring sounds. The outside world was dim and desolate, with a suffocating feeling in my chest, waiting for the rain to arrive and release everything. Due to the chocolate and water my mother-in-law fed me earlier, I started vomiting. A doctor nearby wiped me clean, and I softly expressed my gratitude.
In my memory, I have never been as disheartened as I am now. In my experience, no matter what happens, I always encourage myself not to give up, believing tomorrow will be better. But seeing my son's current state, I lost control. The wind howled, the rain screamed, the earth shook, and I went mad, rushing into the storm. The large raindrops hit my face painfully, and the sharp winds cut across my body.
Opening my eyes, I looked at this vague and unclear world...