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The people in the car got out and opened the car door for Su Ma, helping her out of the car. While helping Su Ma out of the car, that person looked towards the cross of the church on the mountaintop. It was still quite a distance from where that person and Su Ma were standing. That person locked the small car and turned back, slowly supporting Su Ma up the stone steps. That person deeply moved Su Ma. That person took Su Ma all the way to inside the church and brought her to the priest. Throughout the entire process, that person didn't say a single word.
That person was Shi Zihang.
Shi Zihang was driving to run errands for his company. When he was crossing several streets and about to enter the gate of a client's yard, he suddenly saw Su Ma crossing the street unsteadily through the car's rearview mirror, as if she was top-heavy. He wondered why Su Ma's gait was so unsteady. When he drove closer to Su Ma, he realized that she was blind. Shi Zihang couldn't help but feel astonished. How could Su Ma, who was perfectly fine, become blind? This made Shi Zihang both surprised and saddened.
Ever since he had sold out Su Ma's address to Mr. Park due to being financially desperate, he hadn't dared to see Su Ma again. Even during long lonely nights, when he thought of Su Ma's name, he would blush with shame. That one irrational act of his completely severed the friendship between him and Su Ma. He knew Su Ma wouldn't forgive him, nor could he forgive himself. At that time, he was only thinking of a double benefit and completely forgot how this action might harm Su Ma. He thought that if he told Mr. Park Su Ma's address, it would solve his own predicament and also reconcile Mr. Park and Su Ma. In a moment of impulsiveness, he made that decision. Afterwards, he realized just how rash and reckless he had been. What did Su Ma mean to him? Was she a commodity? He often questioned himself because of his guilty conscience.
After that incident, the affection and possessiveness he felt for Su Ma had vanished entirely. It wasn't that he didn't want to, but he felt that it was already a distant dream and fantasy. Su Ma was right there within reach, yet he felt she was impossibly far away.
Would Su Ma ever acknowledge him again? Every time he asked himself this question, he would feel disheartened.
In his disheartened state, he would frequent hotels or small bars, indulging with bar girls, drinking excessively, and getting overly intimate. As a result, he gradually pushed Su Ma out of his mind and also the betrayal he committed against her.
Chapter 18 of Part 5: Reunion with Scars (6)
In those places, he frequently drank until he was staggering and falling over. His spirit, will, and emotions were all worn away there. He had completely lost the elegance and seriousness of a knowledgeable man he used to be. He hung his arm around the bar girls' shoulders, speaking falsehoods and lies, and after heavy drinking, let out loud lewd laughs. During these lewd laughs, his heavily haired hands would grope at the exposed breasts of the bar girls. He would mess around with the bar girls' breasts for a while, behaving inappropriately like someone much older rather than a young man in his thirties.
For a period of time, Shi Zihang allowed himself to get drunk and sober alternately, letting life pass by aimlessly.
Marcus Aurelius said, "A human is a bit of soul carrying a corpse." But Shi Zihang had already lost even his soul.
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