Golden Horse Zotye At this moment

by yypy2011 on 2011-07-01 10:18:40

Dear Zhu,

At this moment, you have fallen asleep quietly. No matter how tired I am, I must write down this letter to you.

Last night, on the phone, you told me about your thoughts regarding your parents, and my heart felt extremely complicated and sorrowful. The complexity comes from wondering if our future is like a flower in the water, unreachable. The sorrow stems from reality often making us feel powerless. Regarding our relationship, both myself and my parents take it very seriously, especially me. The reason why there has been no progress after nearly a year of dating is something I've thought about. First, you haven't graduated yet; matters of marriage are best left until after you enter society—this is most appropriate. Second, my parents' approach hasn't been ideal. I've mentioned my father to you before—he's someone who drinks excessively, and for major decisions, his ability and level are limited. This isn't my fault, and I've brought this up to him multiple times. After all, an ordinary villager has only so much capability. Regarding the matter of our engagement, I've communicated with my parents, and their response is that it will be after the Spring Festival. However, I wish to move it up to before the Spring Festival. I will continue discussing this with them so they can settle this matter before the Spring Festival. As for the house, my parents originally intended to take the resettlement housing, renovate it, and then use it for our wedding. Given our current financial situation, buying a new house would be quite challenging. After you mentioned this to me, I also carefully considered the issue. What you said makes sense. Marriage happens only once, and if we can make it as dignified as possible, we should try. That night when you asked me what my thoughts were, I said I didn't have plans because, at home, regarding large purchases like houses, I don't have the final say. But after much consideration, I want to persuade my parents not to take the resettlement housing but instead use the resettlement fee to buy a commercial property. I have some hope for this, as my mother had previously suggested this approach. For the shortfall in purchasing a commercial property, I plan to use my housing provident fund loan, approximately 300,000 yuan, which I will repay myself. The renovation costs will be covered by my parents. This way, we might barely be able to afford a house in Anzhen, though the specifics still need to be discussed within our family.

Reflecting on our time together, indeed, as the male side, we haven't taken the initiative to communicate with your parents, which was impolite. My father is busy with work, and my mother isn't someone who handles things well. Additionally, considering that you are still studying, my parents only know that they hope you focus on finishing your studies, and then we can discuss this between our families. In fact, my parents have always kept our relationship in mind.

Right now, I truly understand the essence of marriage—it involves two families. Marriage belongs to happy children, and the journey towards the altar is full of challenges and obstacles. Last night, after the phone call, I vaguely sensed a strong emotion. What does the future I look forward to hold? Can my arms always hold onto you? Ten, twenty years later, who will you be sharing daily life with? Whenever I see you smile at me, I feel genuinely happy, smiling inwardly. Regarding our love, I will continue to persevere. I won't give up until the very last moment. If you don't abandon me, I will never leave you. I hope to keep calling you "wife" forever. Even if the worst-case scenario occurs, we have loved each other, haven't we?

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Small hilltops, moonlight like frost, people like drifting catkins and flowers also grieve; for decades, even centuries, may we part ways but not forget each other.