In the evening, I came back home and habitually turned on my computer, opened the game, accepted tasks, changed experience, upgraded. There was a blank in my mind. I found myself a little absent-minded, opened my buddy list, and looked at who was online. Unknowingly, I also made some good friends in the game: Godfather, Evil, Roar, Dream, Snow Night... I am a slow-to-warm-up person who finds it hard to accept others sincerely. I never thought that I would know these good friends in such a way. Although we have never met, only exchanged in the world of games, during the process of downloading UT, I found that we were so familiar with each other. A group of lovely friends will take revenge together if someone is bullied in the game, spend a whole night helping a good friend make clothes, cheer for someone's upgrade, in the UT world, joke around with different accents, scold each other, and also give advice on someone's emotional setbacks. There is no strangeness because of the distance of space. That's great.
Today, I feel empty and uncomfortable in my heart. When I open UT and listen to them talk sentence by sentence, I feel comforted. Evil starts playing songs, sad songs flow in my ears, touching somewhere in my heart. Is this song specially played for me? Let my sadness in my heart flow away bit by bit with the melody.
People say that friends are used to share happiness and worries. But, I'm not a person who easily opens up to others. When I am painful and sad, I will lock myself up more tightly and not let anyone approach. No need for comfort, only when I figure it out myself can I come out. I always think this is my only pattern. But, today, I find that there are many people accompanying me in UT. I can freely express my emotions. They can't see, hear, or feel them. There is no need to comfort or worry about me, but they make me feel that I am not alone. That's great.
Thank you for the game, thank you for UT, thank you for the Godfather, thank you for Evil, thank you for Snow Night.