For more melancholy diaries, please add QQ:375348894. Announcement QQ:375348894 Wei used two years to win Xiao Jie's affection, one of the major reasons being that he knew Jie was what people called a virgin. Remaining chaste, with a kind nature, perhaps due to deep love, Jie appeared almost perfect in his eyes. He didn't dare to ask for too much, fearing he might scare her, although each time he held Jie tightly, his breathing became heavy and difficult to control, yet he still restrained himself. However, he knew that if he wanted, Jie wouldn't refuse.
In Jie's eyes, Wei was humorous and considerate. She especially liked seeing him go wild and then try hard to suppress it when she teased him. That thorough satisfaction made her decide long ago that she would give her first time only to Wei.
By the time they graduated from university, lovers were silently crying or excited. Wei brought Jie to a four-star hotel. They tacitly agreed that graduation day would be the start of their new life. Everything seemed to be developing beautifully as expected.
Two
From the moment Jie pushed open the bathroom door, Wei felt like the whole world had stopped. Her wet hair dripped water droplets down her delicate cheeks, while her body was surrounded by a circle of white mist. The towel wrapped around her body concealed the beautiful figure of a maiden. Jie's shy gaze looked elsewhere nervously as she slowly walked to the bed.
"Jie! You're so beautiful!"
Wei pulled Jie's hand to the bedside. He clearly felt the trembling coming from Jie, which was absolutely the normal reaction of an inexperienced girl facing a man for the first time! Thinking about this, Wei's eyes became slightly moist; he was moved by such devotion a girl had for him!
"You are mine, forever mine. I promise you, Jie, I want you for life, I will take care of you for life!"
"Uh-huh, I know, Wei."
Jie bashfully hid herself in Wei's arms...
As Jie's breathing became increasingly rapid and her body trembled more obviously, Wei decided to make Jie truly become his woman.
"Will it hurt?"
"Trust me! A little pain, are you afraid?"
Jie looked into Wei's profound eyes and shook her head lightly. Wei knew Jie clenched fists, furrowed brows, messy hair, and tightly bitten lips were all just for him! Wei swore to use his entire life to cherish this soon-to-be his woman...
Three
At the instant Wei entered Jie's body, he saw something flash on Jie's face —— were those tears? Despite Wei's utmost care and gentleness, the tearing pain spread throughout Jie's body. Jie's eyebrows seemed even tighter, her fingers deeply embedded in the sheet. Wei struggled to control the primal force within him and breathed heavily,
"Jie, does it hurt? If it hurts, scream out. Can you hold on? Do we stop today?"
Jie pressed her uneven chest and softly said,
"Wei, I want to be your woman! Today, it must happen!"
Her weak voice carried surprising strength, igniting a spark that immediately set off a wildfire...
The world stood still for them, time paused for them. Thus, Wei thrust forcefully, Jie couldn't help but cry out, but she was proud! Her first cry as a woman was for Wei! All her firsts were given to this boy in front of her, no, her man. Tears quietly flowed down her cheeks; she couldn't distinguish whether they were tears of pain or excitement, but that no longer mattered. As Wei's movements became faster, Jie seemed to adapt somewhat to the rhythm, but it was still painful... very painful...
When she felt warm liquid flow into her body, Jie saw Wei fall onto her with infinite satisfaction. She touched Wei's muscular back with her delicate fingers; his back was covered in fine sweat, and his hair seemed damp too. Wei lay there like a well-behaved child. Jie savored the weight on her body, though it made her breath heavy, this tangible possession made her drunk...
When Wei opened his drowsy eyes, he saw several beams of sunlight through the window. The sound of running water came from the bathroom. Ha ha, Jie was always diligent - oh, no, now she was a woman.
He got up to give Jie a big hug, but suddenly everything stopped. When he pulled back the blanket, the sheet was still white?! Wei immediately lost all sleepiness, never had he been so clear-headed before, even his breathing suddenly became heavy. An indescribable tension almost prevented him from walking to the side of the bed. With his left hand pulling at the corner of the blanket, he closed his eyes and forcibly tore it open. Slowly opening his eyes, there was nothing! The whiteness of the sheet seemed to mock Wei mercilessly!
Four
Wei's mind went blank...
Yes, the hymen doesn't necessarily break the first time, right? It doesn't necessarily bleed the first time, right? Is that how it is? Wei thought and regained a bit of consciousness. Jie was a virgin, she was absolutely loyal to him, right? How could this fact be doubted? He mumbled and returned to the bed. Suddenly, Wei picked up the sheet from the ground and quietly lit a cigarette on the bed.
The bathroom door slammed open, Jie looked up directly into Wei's eyes, but behind the smoke, those eyes now looked hazy?
"You're awake, Wei? Don't you want to sleep a little longer? I woke up early and didn't want to disturb you..."
Before Jie finished speaking, Wei rudely cut her off with a kiss. Jie felt like she was suffocating, finally managing to catch her breath, she shyly said:
"Go brush your teeth, don't do this anymore, I'm still sore..."
Wei smirked evilly at the corner of his mouth, "Woman, we'll see how you pretend to be pure," he violently tore open Jie's clothes, revealing her silver-white chest marked with purple spots. He hesitated for a second! What am I doing? Wasn't this last night's masterpiece? He shook his head vigorously, feeling some hesitation.
Although Jie was a bit flustered, she still obediently let Wei have his way. After all, she was Wei's person now, as long as Wei was happy, that's all she cared about. But this time, Wei seemed like a different person, completely unlike the considerate Wei from last night. Without any foreplay, he entered her, reopening the wounds that had just started healing, making it seem even more painful than last night? There was no pleasure for Jie, nor for Wei either. Wei went mad with impact, wanting only to prove himself, wanting only to see red...
Wei slowly withdrew from Jie's body. This time, he didn't collapse onto Jie's chest but instead stood up and pulled back the blanket. Jie hugged her upper body and exclaimed, "Wei! What are you doing?" But what met her eyes was the last thing Wei wanted to see: the bed held the woman he loved most, but beneath her—perfectly clean!
Five
Jie followed Wei's gaze and suddenly understood! She comprehended Wei's abnormal behavior, she read the haze in his eyes when she emerged from the bathroom earlier. She realized why Wei had acted almost animalistic during their lovemaking—it was all to confirm an answer! Watching the sheet slip limply from Wei's hand, Jie suddenly felt fear, though she wasn't sure what she feared. Ignoring her shame, she quickly rose and knelt on the bed, half-kneeling with her head against Wei's chest.
"Wei, I don't know how to explain, believe me, I've only ever been with you... Believe me, Wei, speak, please say something. Isn't it true that some girls have resilient hymens? Can we try again, Wei? Please, let's try again?"
"Enough!"
Wei shoved Jie away.
"Do you still think you're not pure enough? Do you need further proof? Am I not good enough compared to that other man? Try again? Haha! Did you hear that? Those were the words of our pure goddess! You don't need to be in such a hurry."
At this point, Wei felt his dignity as a man trampled by Jie, mocked like a monkey! His voice was hoarse from over-excitement, his handsome face twisted. Jie stared at Wei in horror, tears brimming in her eyes, unable to utter a word, having no way to defend herself. Lowering her head, she endured Wei's endless, baseless accusations without justification! "Stop with those pitiful tears, they only make me feel dirty!"
Jie lifted her head, incredulous at Wei's lips. It was as if she were meeting this Wei for the first time. These lips had spoken of love yesterday, had gently kissed her yesterday, and now they spouted such cruel words. Was this Wei? What was wrong with the world?? Was I dreaming? I wish this was just a dream, it wasn't real! Jie shook her head forcefully, and when she looked at Wei again, she began to shiver and feel cold all over. For in Wei's eyes, she read two words—disappointment!
"Wei,"
Jie's voice was so soft she could barely hear it herself,
"I just want to ask you, do you believe me? Do you believe I'm a virgin? No, a woman, not even... I..."
Jie didn't know why she started rambling,
"Now I just want to ask you, who was the man before? I hate betrayal, lying women are even worse. If you lie, I won't forgive you."
A large tear rolled down Wei's cheek, landing on the carpet and breaking apart. Jie's heart sank along with it,
"I didn't, really didn't."
Jie reached out to Wei, feeling her body tremble. Wei's eyes bore an icy chill, and Jie retracted her hand. Yes, compared to the coldness of her body, Wei's eyes pierced through her bones!
Six
The chill emanating from Wei froze Jie's soul instantly! After pausing for a few seconds, Jie quietly got up, picked up the scattered clothes on the floor, and slowly put them on. Wei silently watched Jie until she was ready to leave the room. As Jie turned to close the door, she gave Wei a deep look filled with sorrow—a look that Wei would never forget for the rest of his life.
Bang!
The closed door separated the two lovers! The room where they spent their wild night seemed to bear witness to their breakup...
Wei thought he had really drank too much tonight, otherwise how could he keep recalling this incident from two years ago with Jie? He shook his head forcefully, trying to dismiss these thoughts. Yet, the name buried deep in his heart hadn't faded with time; instead, it became clearer as he matured.
I wonder if you're doing well, Jie? Where are you now?
Ever since Jie left the room that morning two years ago, Wei lost all contact with her. He never actively searched for her, but he heard bits and pieces about her from friends: Some said she went to study in the UK, others said her mother helped her marry a wealthy Singaporean businessman, and she became a rich wife. Still others claimed she went insane and was sent abroad for treatment. Wei hoped if any of these rumors were true, he hoped it was the first one! Wei never told anyone about that night's event; he wished it would remain a secret between him and Jie forever.
People familiar with them didn't know why Jie left without a word, not even telling Wei her whereabouts, but from Wei's dejection and silence, they guessed the reason.
Over the past two years, Wei worked tirelessly, trying not to touch upon that sensitive name because every time he thought about it, his heart would ache unbearably, even more than when he didn't see the bloodstain on the sheets that night. Today was the first time in a long while that Wei allowed himself to freely think of Jie. His vision blurred, his nose tingled. Could it be that men also shed tears? Jie's face appeared in his mind—her bashful eyes, the flustered glances when she spoke, and her gentle voice. Jie, I miss you! I hate the person I was that day! Truly, I regret it. I finally understand that I love you as a person, not some ridiculous notion of virginity. I don't understand why I made such a foolish decision. Jie, if you want to punish me for two years, can it be enough now? I know I was wrong! Please come back, let me see you again, hold you again, kiss you once more, and tell you I love you!
Jie—
Wei's tears fell into his glass in the dim corner of Xiaoyaqi Bar, where no one would notice a man's heart breaking...
Seven
Wei staggered out of the bar after paying the bill at 1:30 AM. It was pouring rain outside, and the crisp air sobered him up considerably. Following the flickering streetlights, he walked unsteadily: Remembering how much Jie loved rainy weather, she enjoyed catching raindrops with her hands and playing with them, mischievously spinning her umbrella to splash water. Back then, Jie looked exactly like a fairy in the water!
Completely immersed in his memories, Wei failed to notice the red light at the intersection and walked straight across. Suddenly, a glaring car light blinded him, forcing him to squint to see what was happening. The screeching brakes abruptly stopped, but the slippery road caused the car to slide a few meters before stopping less than a meter away from Wei. What a close call! Wei was suddenly wide awake. Squinting, he stared at the car's windshield. "Hey! Can you drive? Turn off the headlights, will you!"
The headlights went off, leaving a moment of quiet except for the sound of the rain. Wei wondered why the person in the car didn't move. Just as he prepared to open the door to investigate, it opened. A strong scent of perfume hit him—it was CD Poison, Wei knew women who wore this perfume were usually older, but looking up, he froze immediately—
"Jie! Is that really you? It's me, Wei! Don't you recognize me? I can't believe I'm seeing you now. Where have you been these two years? Are you still unwilling to forgive me? Do you know, Jie! I love you! I love you! I was wrong! Truly wrong! Can you forgive me? Jie, I haven't stopped missing you for a single minute! Jie!"
Wei reached out to embrace Jie but was gently avoided.
"Did I hit you?"
Jie's voice carried a chilling indifference, instantly dampening Wei's excitement by half.
"Let's talk in the car, it's raining heavily outside."
Wei watched Jie turn and get back into the car, feeling an overwhelming sense of unfamiliarity. The same face, the same person, but a heart that was now cold and distant.
The Enigma 2 played eerily in the car, making Wei extremely uncomfortable, unsure of what to say.
"Are you injured? Should we go to the hospital? I can take you."
Jie broke the silence first.
"I'm fine, Jie, where have you been these two years?"
"……"
"Jie, I may have been a bit emotional just now, but everything I said was sincere! Jie, can we start over?"
"Start over?"
"Yes, give me another chance! I'll definitely take good care of you! I was too immature back then! But you disappeared that day, not even giving me a chance to make amends. Since then, I've realized that I love you as a person, truly, I'm hopelessly in love with you!"
Saying this, Wei grasped Jie's hand. She didn't pull away, and he felt her cool fingers. Now, Wei didn't want to think about anything else; he just wanted to quietly warm those hands. Neither of them said a word. What initially sounded strange to Wei now seemed like a gentle stream flowing peacefully in his heart. Any words would be superfluous. Wei gently turned Jie's head and gazed deeply into her eyes. Two years hadn't changed her beauty, her face remained as radiant as peach blossoms, but her expressive eyes lacked much of their former sparkle, passively returning his gaze.
"Jie—"
This person he'd called countless times in his dreams was now vividly in front of him. Thank heavens!
Unable to resist, Wei lightly kissed Jie's forehead, sliding to her eyebrows, her high nose, and finally her rosy lips.
"Ahh—Don't!"
The car echoed with Jie's heart-wrenching scream, as if cutting through the dark rainy night…
Eight
Jie tightly hugged her chest, pressing hard against the car door, still staring at Wei in shock. Her gaze was like looking at a demon, full of endless fear. Wei was completely bewildered. He wanted to reach out to Jie, but she screamed again, pushing her body harder against the car door.
"Alright, alright, I won't touch you, I won't touch you, Jie, don't be afraid, I won't hurt you. It's me, Wei."
At this moment, Wei seriously considered the situation. The Jie in front of him seemed a bit off. She seemed not to recognize him.
"Jie? What's wrong? Can you tell me? Did I scare you just now?"
"Get away! Don't touch me, don't touch me, please, please!"
Jie's previously emotionless face now splashed with tears mixed with unclear voices, her trembling body resembled a frightened rabbit's gaze, confirming Wei's suspicion that something was indeed wrong here. Seeing the scene in front of him, his beloved woman had become like this, Wei's heart became even heavier. He wanted to tightly embrace Jie, gently wiping away her tears, but he couldn't do anything. Jie was now hypersensitive, and Wei could only watch her suffer, which was undoubtedly worse than being torn apart himself.
"Jie, what's wrong with you? Tell me, tell Wei. Don't you know how agonizing you're making Wei feel?
Heaven!
I thought you brought me happiness earlier, but why must you show me such a cruel picture? Is this a punishment for me?"
Wei's tears streamed uncontrollably, he shouted fiercely like a trapped beast. In response, only the continuous rain and Jie curled up muttering to herself.
"Don't touch me, please, I beg you..."
Ignoring the rain soaking his body, Wei anxiously paced outside the emergency room. The central air conditioning in the hospital made him shiver constantly. Fifteen minutes later, the doctor came out of the emergency room.
"Who is the patient's family?"
"Doctor, how is she?"
"Are you her family?"
"No, but I'm her friend. Is she alright?"
"Oh, according to our initial examination, her mental state is quite unstable, likely due to prolonged shock or trauma. Additionally, she has been taking large amounts of sedatives, which can only temporarily alleviate her condition with significant side effects. We suggest she should stop taking them. Also..."
Most of what the doctor said was nearly unbelievable to Wei. What happened to Jie to make her like this?
"Doctor, are you saying her mental state isn't normal?" Wei couldn't help but ask the question he feared most.
"This is hard to say. Her consciousness might fluctuate between lucid and confused states. We need further observation to make a definitive diagnosis. You should inform her family to come as soon as possible. Also, please process her admission procedures."
After completing the admission procedures at 3 AM, flipping through Jie's bag revealed no address book. Right, Jie's bag had a mobile phone. Strange, there was only one number. This didn't seem like Jie's family number. Wei tried replaying the number. His heart suddenly became very tense, as if by intuition, he felt this call might explain some things—like Jie's illness! The phone rang for a long time before someone answered. Despite his exhaustion, Wei's mind was unusually clear.
"Why aren