Before, I thought people could easily say the word "love". But how can such a complicated word become one that is said so casually? During passionate romances, people exchange vows of love, but in the end, they still break up. However, I will never speak the word "love" so casually. I remember saying this word earlier this year when I truly fell in love with a girl. She was beautiful and gentle, and I couldn't help but care for her and love her. Love might turn a person into a lowly animal, disrupting their thoughts. Every morning after waking up, I would check if she was online or if her avatar was active, and I would just stare at it absentmindedly. It's kind of silly. Sometimes, I wished she would delete all the boys from her contact list, or tell everyone that she belongs to me. Or sometimes, I even stooped so low as to investigate her messages like Sherlock Holmes, even though I knew I wouldn't like what I'd see. But I never mentioned my feelings. Haha, I'm just an ordinary little man. I once asked myself, do I really love you that much? Are you the person I want most in my life? What kind of life will we have together? Haha, I've asked myself many questions. The only answer I can give myself is: I really love you, my forever Pandora. Love, I think, shouldn't be this way. Forgive my selfishness. I fear... I fear the day you leave me for someone better, someone more excellent than me. Thinking about this makes my heart twist in pain. I don't think I should love you in this way. Life has many crossroads. Ah Piao, I fear losing you. I don't have the right to make you wait for me. So I'm willing to be a competitor in this race, waiting for you at the finish line. I won't let life pass by with regrets. Even if there are regrets, I'll tell myself I've tried my best.
Below is a poem excerpted from Xia Hua Literature Network:
Tonight, I am sleepless again.
Tomorrow is another Valentine's Day,
I wonder if you're doing well?
Our past was happy...
Now, we go our separate ways.
Are you doing okay?
How many nights I think of you...
Words cannot express how much I want to talk to someone about you.
The gray sky is because you're missing.
Wandering soullessly on the streets,
Expecting to meet you at the next corner.
Suddenly, a bright light!
I see you.
You're still as beautiful,
Your smile still as warm.
Getting closer, wanting to approach you.
But your figure dissipates like fireworks.
Well, I was dreaming again.
I laugh, such an ironic laugh....
Looking up, the sky is still so dim..
Everything, is already over...
Are you doing okay?
Have you thought of me?
You've probably forgotten me already....
Sigh, let's go back....
Maybe saying goodnight to you
Can only be whispered softly in your ear when you're asleep.
Goodnight at dawn.....
No matter what happens, everyone should remain calm and composed like the protagonist in the campus novel "All-Rounder Genius."