It's been a long time since I last wrote a diary. The main reason is that I always find N reasons not to write. I feel like I have a case of post-holiday syndrome, with a resistant attitude towards the holiday season. I always feel busy and more tired than anyone else, task after task leaving me breathless. But in fact, everyone is just as busy before the New Year. Now I hate the holiday season because I can't find the happiness and joy I felt as a child during this time. Many friends go back to their hometowns for the holidays, making it difficult to gather together. People are always like this: when you're tired from work, you want to rest and relax, but when you really have the time to rest, you find yourself with nothing to do, feeling restless and bored. This is a problem that many people face nowadays. Maybe as a Leo, my mood is more special than others, even I can't figure myself out. My mood can quickly turn low, and I don't know what's wrong with me. Last night, I affected many members in a group chat due to my emotions. One member messaged me privately and shared some of his thoughts about me. I carefully listened to his advice and opinions, and he was indeed right. Observers always see things most clearly and truly. If you only hear praise, you will never improve or change. I want to thank this friend for sharing his honest thoughts and suggestions with me. This has made me realize what I need to correct and how others see me, sincerely thanking "Dàn Mò" (a name).
In fact, everyone has a few close friends who appear when you're feeling down. This is a kind of happiness that we need to cherish. If encouragement and support from friends make you more sad and indulgent, that's a kind of harm. There are many friends, but true confidants are hard to come by.
To summarize my recent work, it was indeed very busy before the New Year. Basically every day at the company, I felt the pressure on my mind. Besides work, there were also urgent matters in volunteer work and local meet-up events. Sometimes I really wish I had a double, or three heads and six arms, or even superpowers so that everything would be easy. But in reality, I'm just an ordinary person. Some things must follow procedures and cannot be rushed. So, I can't handle every task perfectly, but I will try my best. I am ashamed that what I've done hasn't been as perfect as expected, and I haven't met everyone's expectations regarding this position and the way I handle things, which is a kind of dereliction of duty. With the blink of an eye, 2012 has arrived, and I actually look forward to the end of the world, though it's just a thought. There are still many things to do this year, and I shouldn't keep a pessimistic attitude while doing things. That will only lead to failure. Let's cheer ourselves up! As long as we feel no shame, that's enough.
Source: 2012 Literature Network Related theme articles: Mood Notes