Yesterday morning, on my way to work, I unintentionally looked up and saw that the big screen in the appliance store was playing "Dancing Miracle" which featured my favorite singer Zhang Jie from his early years. I immediately stopped to watch. After watching for a while, I turned around and left. Secretly, I also found my own actions quite amusing. At my age, I'm still so obsessed with celebrities, no wonder my husband mocks me as being unintelligent. But I'm too lazy to care about what he says. As long as I like it, why do I need to seek others' approval? Everyone has something they like. Compared to those who are addicted to mahjong or video games every day, I think I am quite refined. After all, idol chasing belongs to the spiritual level. Hehe! Moreover, I don't hide the fact that I am a fan, and I am even a veteran fan member! This shows that my heart is still young, and I am still very cute! Think about it, isn't it precisely because of these things I am deeply infatuated with spiritually and my selfless devotion that diverts my attention from my husband, relaxes strict discipline over him, reduces family disputes, shares harmony, and makes him feel comfortable and free both physically and mentally! Hehe!
Interestingly, the person who initiated me into the world of idol chasing also named Zhang Jie. However, this Zhang Jie is not the same as Zhang Jie the famous male singer or the renowned female writer Zhang Jie, but my close friend. We have been friends for more than 20 years, with a deep and solid friendship, sincere and pure. Although we no longer live in the same place and don't often contact each other, the nectar of friendship flows in each of our hearts. During occasional reunions, we are still the same as before, warm and intimate. That sincere and lasting friendship is what I value the most.
I still remember when I was in junior high school, during the summer vacation, I went to her house to play, and she took out a thick stack of "Overseas Nebula" magazines borrowed from her cousin for me to read. "Overseas Nebula" is a comprehensive magazine containing information on science and technology, society, military, film and television, etc. Several issues of "Overseas Nebula" were albums of Hong Kong and Taiwan film and television stars. Also, at that time, her house had cable TV, so we could watch Hong Kong and Taiwan programs. She often told me about celebrities like Brigitte Lin and Chow Yun-fat. Over time, my heart followed her explanations with ups and downs. If the TV station aired Hong Kong and Taiwan dramas, we would definitely be the most loyal viewers. After watching, we would have big discussions, and we even bought many star stickers together, sticking them in our notebooks, exchanging stickers of certain stars under agreed conditions, which was extremely fun. It was under her guidance that I became a fan, crazily infatuated with films and television. It was also during that time that I bought a lot of film and television magazines, and I knew everything about each star's movements. I could talk about their names and hobbies fluently, becoming like a spokesperson for the stars. Since then, idol chasing has taken root in my heart, and it is difficult to eradicate it completely. Later on, whenever I saw entertainment news about the stars, I would never forget it, but for professional books, I couldn't remember a single term after reading them many times. Alas, I don't understand myself, I am troubled, I don't know why I am so obsessed and like them, actually, it doesn't mean much. But many human behaviors are not constrained by reason, and I just can't control myself, showing how deeply I am trapped, how empty my brain is. Hehe! My good friend has long since moved on, but I am still foolishly infatuated, continuing until now without changing my initial intentions. There are fewer blind and reckless actions, and more thoughtfulness and stability, perhaps this is the best gift that time has given me. Hehe!
However, I still admire and respect my friend's consistent attitude towards life. Many years ago, after her factory closed down, she began a series of colorful lives: opening beauty salons, clothing stores, working for others, being a full-time housewife at home, and now opening a spicy noodle snack shop. Whatever she does, she excels, achieving great success, always busy, making her life rich and full. Her passion for life, her courage to move forward, her optimism, and her perseverance make me feel inferior. Although my job is stable, I have never integrated into society. I have always stayed in an obscure corner, like a wild lily in the valley, living and dying on its own, with more plainness and less brilliance. However, in my heart, I still yearn for that diverse life, a bit of freshness, a bit of excitement, anxiously expecting, even though experiencing hardships, but learning to grow. I can't help but indulge in some random thoughts. If time could flow backward, I hope heaven could give me a love like in Korean dramas, profound and unforgettable, and a different life from now, allowing me to bloom extravagantly! Hehe!