I am blue, I hide my joys and sorrows in my heart, not wanting myself to be as clear as water, seen through at a glance. I always smile, but that does not mean I'm always happy. I am easy to get along with, but if you want to become my friend, it's not an easy thing.
A person carries too much burden, loneliness and fatigue come one after another, so I chose the Internet, chose 51. I hope in this virtual world I can express my feelings without reservation, free myself from loneliness and fatigue, but I have not accomplished it in the end.
In this one and a half years' time, I often don't update my diary for a long period, not because there is nothing to write about, but because I don't know how to start, nor do I wish to put those disordered thoughts on paper. Those texts already presented, exuding a blue aura, or leaving words unsaid, or talking about one thing while referring to another, but I believe someone will accurately capture the information I want to convey hidden between the lines.
Since I cannot let go, I'd rather choose to leave. There's no need to guess what kind of person I am, among 100 netizens, there are 100 Blue Houses!
My good friends, though we have never met, I deeply feel your sincerity. With you, my journey on 51 has no regrets, thank you for your care and encouragement over a long period of time.
I will close my account on 51 on December 31st. The end of a story means the beginning of another one. A brand new 2008, looking forward to new stories being unfolded.
Wish all my friends a Merry Christmas and Happy New Year!
When bidding farewell to 51 in 07, I was still wondering where I would be in 08 and 09, what I would be doing? And now I am really sitting in front of the computer writing these words.
Living life moment by moment, I barely notice any changes. When you intend to record it with words, you suddenly realize clearly that changes are truly everywhere. Time and space go without saying, experiences and state of mind have already changed greatly.