For the hardworking people, or occasionally myself in a mess, still admire them more or less. So when such a colleague encounters injustice, I also get angry. In the evening, I smiled and consoled him "How can one not bow his head when under someone's roof? Life is just like that." His emotions were still a bit excited "I am determined to leave this time!" After being silent for a while and thinking about what I said, I suddenly felt powerless. After a long time, I said "That's right! No one can predict the future. I don't know whether I should persuade you or not. To be honest, our friendship has only been two months, hehe, I'm just expressing my thoughts." He didn't reply for a long time. It was already past 1:00 AM, so I decided to sleep. But I accidentally found someone online. Every time I met this person, I, who always lurked, couldn't help but start a conversation, although every time it ended up with loneliness. It was always like this. I asked two trivial and boring questions, and she replied casually with a few words full of spelling mistakes. The idle chat ended like this. Actually, I was a person with scattered thoughts, never short of topics. I could ramble on about love or occasionally be a comedian, but it seemed like there was an unspoken agreement between us that sealed many doors tightly. After chatting for a while, she suddenly called out my name, which made me feel inexplicably heavy in this hip-hop virtual world. She asked me "If you spend a lot of money on something and then find out it's not that great after all, what would you do?" I answered her, just like answering anyone else, with equally vague and evasive words. An hour passed, and before I could continue the previous conversation, she said "Don't talk about those nonsense things, okay! We've talked for a long time, but the problem is still not solved." I said "If this involves feelings, I still have that sentence, I refuse to answer. Because matters of the heart are beyond reason." "What would you do?" "Throw it directly into the warehouse, no need to think too much, just over." She seemed quite upset about this question and then gave a very vivid and lifelike analogy. I finally couldn't stand it anymore, I countered her "Are you having a relationship with a man and then find out he has many flaws, so you're hesitating?" After a long time, she sent back "So sharp! But not to that extent!" At that moment, I was completely out of control, facing such a somewhat sarcastic sentence, I could only dumbly smile and reply "Well, I'm just a person with high IQ." She finally started talking about her boyfriend and her troubles, and kept asking me for answers. She said she always thought I had clear thoughts and deep ideas, so she insisted I answer. I lit the last cigarette and slowly said "Haven't you ever thought that I might get hurt?" She laughed and said "Yes! You even wrote me a love letter before, I'm your first love, so add a few words and write 'first girlfriend XX' in the remarks. Sigh! Let me take the loss." I was at a loss whether to cry or laugh and said "Strictly speaking, there's nothing between us, right?" "That's why it's called first love! My boyfriend" Actually, even in the craziest passionate love, I'm not used to using such naked words. I just gently reminded her "It's very late, go to sleep." The other side replied "I know!" "Listen to me, go to sleep quickly" The other side got a little angry "Blah blah, like an old woman, if you dare to say again, you're dead!" So when she sent it, I, such a free-spirited person, didn't know what to say either. Slowly typed many words "Because it's you asking me, I can't detach my own feelings and look at this issue objectively. Moreover, aren't you worried that I might break up your couple? If I say, cherish the hard-earned feelings and manage them properly, first, I don't want to敷衍you, second, I can't give myself an explanation. Moreover, my mood has been terrible these days, and now it's even worse." She said "You should find a girlfriend!" She called my name again and continued "You seem not living in reality, you should see a psychologist." I laughed and said "I've read psychology, philosophy, management, political science, sociology, I'm afraid even psychologists can't argue with me." "Psychologists get sick and need to see other psychologists too!" "Hehe, if I wanted to find a girlfriend, wouldn't you think I couldn't find one? Not to brag, I can see through their minds at a glance, I know what they want and what desires they have, I know how to flatter someone" "So you think they are vulgar, right?" "It seems you understand me better" "What about me?" "I can't treat you with that kind of thinking" "Is that a compliment?" "Hehe, rest assured. I'm trying very hard to be a normal person now" It was already 4:00 AM. I wanted to say something, but I really couldn't say anything. I was caught firmly between reality and feelings, both forces were so strong that I almost suffocated to death. My thoughts wildly ran through those youthful past events, then suddenly rushed to those vague futures. I said "I've said it before, I don't have any youth left to waste. So, it's very late. I'm going to sleep." Without looking at what she replied, I directly pulled the power cord. Rather than letting the hard drive get damaged, I'd rather go to sleep early. There were already many signs of dawn outside, car sounds, tinkling, footsteps with a lonely tone, but I still couldn't fall asleep. In the past, I always had to brew a cup of strong tea to block the overwhelming drowsiness, why tonight without anything, why can't I sleep! She said before "She cried a lot because of me", honestly speaking, when I heard this sentence at that time, it carried no weight at all, it just floated away lightly. Perhaps, there is still a bit of fairness and justice in this world. Hehe! But I still thank her. I haven't experienced such external emotions imposed on me for a long time. I haven't tasted the feeling of being helpless for a long time. Although I always say I'm stupid, I don't care and even boast that I'm the number one fool in the world, I still silently acknowledge the wisdom in foolishness. Although I have repeatedly suffered severe lessons from society because of this, endured countless hardships, created numerous funny stories, I still don't know how to reflect properly. Fortunately, there is still such a person in this world who can firmly throw me into an endless icy world. Well, that's why I said, I thank her. Hey! Are you there? My tender affection always fails to reach others, but always drowns myself! Isn't this joke great?! Anyway, the sandman finally came, time to sleep!