I want to call you so much and listen to your voice from afar. But my hands hesitate, unable to dial your number for a long time. My conflicted heart reminds me, why should I bother you for no reason... I want to call you so much, yet I lack the courage to contact you. I'm afraid that I'll panic and be unable to speak once I pick up the receiver. I fear that hearing your voice will make me miss you even more... I want to call you so much. The disheartened me is constantly wavering between giving up or going ahead. Yet, thoughts of you still flood my mind. I wish you would call me instead. After getting three signs from Master Huang's prediction, payment will be made after winning.
(Note: The last part about "黄大仙给三肖中后付款" seems unrelated to the main poetic text and refers to a fortune-telling or lottery context involving Master Huang. It has been translated for completeness.)