At this moment, maybe you're eating, or maybe you're getting your hair cut. Hehe, I'm still so clingy, always wanting to know what you're doing, always wanting to be by your side all the time. When I'm with you, I can put aside those things that give me headaches, unwilling to think about them, unwilling to face them. Even if I'm not happy and fool around with you a bit, I'll recover quickly, like a little lunatic.
I've noticed that recently I seem to have become obsessed with marriage. I'm always looking forward to marriage, looking forward to that red certificate, even imagining what it would be like to have a child. My character seems not to be like this, I've never been like this before. Maybe it's because of my age, maybe I'm really getting old. The ancestor of ten thousand demons, I really want a warm home, a loving husband. Or am I becoming increasingly insecure? Hehe, maybe it's because of you, you make me feel like I want to have a family. Although we haven't been together for long, I seem to have changed a lot. The old me was more capricious, more self-centered, and I seemed to have never admitted my mistakes. But in recent times, I can slowly feel that I'm not like myself anymore. I want to be a little woman by your side, I want to care about you, I want to silently lean on you. It seems like in life, there's nothing but you. I push all the responsibilities onto you, criticizing your shortcomings. Maybe the one who's wrong isn't you, but me.
In recent times, I've lost myself, always thinking about becoming your wife, and imposing my thoughts on you, always hoping that you will have the same ideas as me. It's so tiring. Your Royal Highness of the Zhou Dynasty, darling, aren't you tired too? Every day, you not only have to deal with me, this naughty little woman, but also have to be busy with work. Fool, you've worked hard during this period. Actually, I feel so sorry for you. Sometimes, I want to throw a little tantrum at you, but when I see your silly look, I soften up again. I want to cling to you for a lifetime, asking you for candy sticks for a lifetime, and releasing Kongming lanterns with you every Valentine's Day. I'm so afraid that the happiness of this moment will just be fleeting, like moths flying into fire. That's why I want to hold your hand tightly, never letting go for a lifetime. No matter how difficult things are, I can bear them. But I'm so afraid that one day you'll get tired and let go of my hand.
Darling, stop worrying about me. I'm not tired at all. I'll be fine, living well, and telling myself to cherish every day. I'll arrange my life well because I understand that loving you doesn't mean I should lose myself. As you said, all I seem to think about is feelings, feelings, and nothing else. Don't worry, I won't be like that from now on. I'll live every day wonderfully.
Source: Baishanxuan
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