Loneliness, a silent yet heart-wrenching loneliness! Suddenly, I realized that in my world, apart from myself, there is nothing left. The people around me are bustling about, but they are merely fleeting guests in my life, coming and going in a hurry, leaving no trace behind. I wander in this world like a lost soul, aimlessly drifting. The world is cold, and my heart feels equally chilly!
Some say that male Aries shoes can fill the void of loneliness with friendship. But there is no friendship in my life. I have no friends! I keep telling myself that I don't need friends. Yet deep down, I have a strong yearning for friendship. I wish for one or a few friends who can listen to me, understand me, and console me. They could share my loneliness and comprehend my pain! But I haven't found them, http://www.17u.com/blog/article/982442.html! I always feel that no one can be my friend, and no one is willing to be my friend. Deep inside, I alienate others, and I also feel that others reject me. I have a lack of trust in others and even a sense of disdain. I am always waiting for someone who can enter my heart without an invitation, empathizing with my joys and sorrows! However, in my resistant anticipation, many potential friendships have passed me by, and many possible friends have forever closed their doors to me. Therefore, in the eyes of others, I have become a reclusive person, someone who prefers solitude, and someone without friends. But only I know the truth: I have become a lonely person!
Love is also a good remedy for loneliness. Because in each other's hearts, there is always the presence of another person. Lovers who are close will not endure loneliness alone, so their hearts will not feel lonely! So I also long for love, despite always claiming to be a lover of none! But where is the love for a lonely person? I distrust others, so I remain indifferent towards them. I express my love through my indifference, naturally, no one believes this is love, and no one would accept my strange kind of love! Thus, I am left with unrequited love, using silence to express my passion, allowing loneliness to replace what should be a colorful romance! But when, amidst this loneliness, I discover that the person of my dreams already has someone else, it is not just loneliness but a heart-wrenching pain!
Without friendship, without love, I still have family bonds! But I find that while family can provide some comfort to my heart, it cannot dispel my loneliness. Once all attention is focused on family, the feeling of loneliness becomes even stronger! Because you realize that apart from those family members who are impossible to abandon you, you have nothing left!
Lacking both friendship and love, I place my hope of alleviating loneliness in my career and studies. But once I lose direction in my life, how can I escape this suffocating loneliness? I can immerse myself in a fictional world, http://blog.zol.com.cn/log_list.php?userid=asljt51nlx, experiencing fictional victories and fictional romances. But eventually, I must return to reality, where I am still left with nothing! I still cannot escape loneliness and solitude, and I must face my pain alone!
I want to change, but I truly do not know how to change myself!