Today is May 29, the weather in Changchun is cloudy and rainy, a bit cold. The charm of life lies in its unpredictability, in going with the flow. I wonder if my mood always changes with the weather like this. May 29, Saturday, for some reason, I suddenly feel very depressed. It's interesting, the weather in Dachaidan, self-guided tours to Mount Lu (definitely helpful). Today I went to watch a basketball game. Normally, in such a setting, I should be very excited and shouting loudly, but I felt like I was part of the atmosphere at that time, feeling awkward, fine rain impressions. Recently, I've been feeling very decadent. I haven't attended computer class twice, and my English listening comprehension has made me lose all confidence. On rainy days, the weather in Sunwu, searching for inner yearnings in Wuhan, I don't know why everything seems so unlucky. My study is a mess, and many things seem to have happened around my friends. A halo appears in the sky over Haikou, the weather in Dexing, °のsqueak. I really don't know what's wrong with this period of time? Sometimes I just can't muster up any spirit, even a bit degenerate.
Today I didn't plan to go online, but I don't know what to do. There's an exam coming up, and I basically haven't studied yet, but I can't concentrate. I keep telling myself that when I can't focus, I should put it down and pick it up again after adjusting. But now I don't even know what will help me adjust. My mood is always inexplicably bad. It seems that one thing not done well will affect many other things, at least your mood to do those things. On May 11, 2010, I came online today, but I don't know what to do. Friends called me to play games, but I don't have the mood. I really feel that people live hard nowadays, feeling very tired, at least pretending to be tired! Always wavering between wanting to be understood and being afraid of being understood, full of contradictions!!!