All of this was predestined by heaven! We merely acted it out! So, my dear, you are the most important, the most brilliant part of my life... Loving you has completely taken over my entire being, from now on, I have eyes for no one else... Life is like a stagnant pool, without ripples, without waves. I thought that this would be the way for the rest of my life... But because of your arrival, something changed...
Meeting and getting along, always blossoms like summer flowers in full bloom. You illuminated my darkness, filled my loneliness with noise, brightened my gloom, and enlivened my frozen life... How could I let go? How can I not think of you? This kind of absolute feeling, not far, yet unreachable; not near, yet unattainable. With you, we are only separated by the distance of a net, neither too close nor too far, yet worlds apart... We come from different places, but due to our shared interests, we met online. Just like two different streams, driven by gravity, converge in the East Sea. However, these streams will never separate again.
We seem destined to be forever separated by miles. Between us lies a chasm that no boat can cross. All I can do is repeatedly leave marks of longing for you on the beach, only for them to be smoothed away by the waves.
No matter how much patience I have, I cannot touch or erase the image of you imprinted on the walls of my heart... My youthful years still linger, yet love and companionship remain unattainable. As time passes, after many years, will you still remember the boy who loved you so deeply and sincerely? I wish there was an opportunity to meet at dusk, to hold hands under the shade of trees and walk slowly together... Is this desire only a beautiful dream kept within my heart? I long to surrender myself to you as a waterfall plunges into a deep pool, but I fear my virtues are insufficient, which might hinder your cultivation. How could I bear to see you embarrassed?
Therefore, I deeply love you, but cannot reveal even a word, silently burying everything inside me... When the sun sets, weary birds may return home, but floating duckweeds drift endlessly. I cannot command wings made of air to approach the beautiful clouds forever. Just like loving you so much, yet unable to get closer, only able to watch you from afar... The dewdrops in the morning light are my crystal-clear heart, the eyes expecting your appearance. Each drop is filled with unwavering affection for you...
When I cannot find you, I search through the ocean of memories. Those days, months, and years, as long as they contain records of you, whether happy or sorrowful, I revisit them one by one. Reading about the past feels like seeing you, smiling, walking towards me...
When the moon is full, I am still alone. Spreading wings of sorrow, I continue flying without stopping...
When exhausted, I should no longer yearn for your enchanting face. When clouds pass by, I tell the curious stars winking at me that we are under the same sky, gazing at the same moon. When the wind brushes against my feathers, I tell the wide-eyed, astonished moon that it is the clear sound you play for me, using notes to make an appointment to welcome tomorrow's sun together... The smile on my face ensures that the stars and moon no longer try to explore the sadness surging in my heart...
In front of you, I once acted recklessly, aimlessly... Once, I thought I could forever indulge in the joy you bestowed upon me... I hope this wonderful bond isn't just a dream? But could it really not be a dream? The happiness you brought has faded, leaving only me, lonely, standing by your side... When missing you, I frantically search for your traces, your laughter. Facing our shared past, I read it over and over, unable to stop letting former laughter and tears wet your remembered face once more. I foolishly wait, bitterly miss... I want to change, but thinking of you has become a habit, and everything is no longer up to me to choose...
You are a beautiful princess, but I am not a proud prince. In your presence, I always feel so insignificant, humble, audacious... Love, when unattainable, grows wildly like thorns without any protection, and each sharp spike always pierces the most sensitive parts of my heart. The more I think of you, the more it hurts; the more it hurts, the more I think of you. If I had known that getting close to you would cause such heartache; if I had known that meeting would never happen; if I had known that loving you would bring an unbreakable, tangled affection... Would I have chosen differently? But... I would still choose to get close to you. If I could resist your allure, then there would be no eternal love in this world...
Do you know? My beloved, I have been waiting for you here, looking forward to your arrival. You are my fertile land. Once you have passed through my life, no other waters will ever flow again!! A poet once said: As long as in my eyes, there was your fragrant summer, in my heart, there will always be a sincere poem. Then, growing old in such sorrow is not so bad... Blue represents longing, red represents my heart that loves you, green represents the desire to get closer to you. This color between blue and green, almost sea-like, mixes all my feelings for you. No matter how far apart we are, no matter how lonely I am in this life, my heart is always overflowing with everlasting good wishes for you...