I have never really thought about the reason why you left me...
I have never thought about the sorrow of your departure...
I didn't know that you were more痛苦 than me...
I didn't realize that I had hurt you so deeply...
That year...
I was snuggling in your arms, you gently stroked my head and said to me: We... should break up...
At that time, all I could think of was crying...
I didn't want to leave you, I refused to leave you because I loved you so much...
I kept pounding on your chest, but you held me tightly.
I hate you!!!
In that instant, this sentence appeared in my mind...
Why did you give me love only to cruelly hurt me like this?
Back then, I was only thinking of myself; I never considered the suddenness of your words...
After we parted ways, I avoided seeing you...
Even though you called me many times, I ignored you...
Because I believed that if I heard your voice or saw you, my cold tears would still fall...
Until one day, I received a call from ***...
She said...
You were dying...
She said...
My dearest love, because of cancer, you were about to die!!!
The memory of our breakup came rushing back into my mind, and I cried...
I rushed without hesitation to find you...
I wanted with all my heart to scold you as a big fool!!!!!!
However, heaven still cruelly wanted to punish me...
When I saw your cold body covered by a white sheet, I nearly went mad...
*** handed me a letter...
In my grief, I opened the letter...
Jie, you are the woman I love most in this life, but also the woman I least wanted to love in this life... I know, you will surely call me a big fool, but... I selfishly didn't want to see your tear-streaked face... Please, don't cry, because your beloved me, will always be there watching over you... If time could rewind, I would rather not have fallen in love with you, so your pain wouldn't have existed. Willing not to love you, but in truth, I love you so much... Treasure... I'm sorry...
As I looked at each line blurred by my tears, I cried even harder...
Big fool...
You super big fool, how could I possibly not cry?
Big idiot...
(Responsible Editor: Crescent Moon)