My only regret at that time was that my girlfriend did not give me her first night, and there was inevitably a little void in the depths of my heart. After making love to her, I always feel a little regret, so I often ask myself, is virginity really the same as what is written in books? What would it be like to make love with a virgin? I asked my girlfriend, my female friends, and their answers were surprisingly the same - a little pain, a little blood. In theory, my dream of virginity should have woken up. After all, in Nanjing, this open city, it's not as easy to find a virgin as it is to make tens of thousands of yuan. I daydreamed about finding a virgin every day. But from that day on, I experienced it. If you ask me how it felt? The regret of not being with a virgin is gone, replaced by endless guilt. I know, I was wrong again.