Ai Matsushima's Blog: One Month Before Death, "From Time to Time, I Suddenly Feel Lonely"

by xiaoshiyiluokuang on 2008-12-26 08:55:43

"Platonic Love" details Ai Iijima's journey of running away from home, shooting AV tapes, etc., with a semi-autobiographical nature.

On November 28, 2004, Ai Iijima attended an AIDS prevention event in Tokyo.

According to reports, "I dreamed of having dinner with Ai Iijima. The restaurant in the dream was too dimly lit, and I couldn't find the blue pill..." This line from Li Zongsheng's song "Lately Been Quite Bothered" expresses the dreams and worries of middle-aged men. Last night on Christmas Eve, men who had an "Ai Iijima complex" must have been very troubled because news came from Tokyo, Japan that former Japanese adult film star Ai Iijima was found dead yesterday afternoon at her own apartment in Tokyo at the age of 36. The police suspect it might be a suicide and believe she may have been dead for several days. As of 7 PM last night, the Japanese police were still investigating her death further.

Blog reveals fear of loneliness

In March of last year, Ai Iijima announced her retirement to the world through a TV show and her blog, stating she would "never appear in the entertainment industry again." Afterwards, she frequently updated her personal blog to inform everyone about her current situation.

In February this year, Ai Iijima admitted to being treated for neurasthenia at a hospital. On October 31st, just after celebrating her 36th birthday, Ai Iijima wrote: "I want to thank my parents, and also thank everyone for their support, it's great to be alive." She also analyzed herself as being very afraid of loneliness and impulsively leaving messages to confirm her existence. In her blog post from a month before her death, she wrote "From time to time, I suddenly feel lonely," expressing feelings of depression.

Netizens carry out mourning activities

Upon hearing the shocking news of Ai Iijima's death, many netizens expressed their condolences. Douban users quickly initiated a "deeply mourn Ai Iijima, remember the queen of the generation" event, attracting over 150 participants within just ten minutes. Netizens from Tianya Community also expressed their sorrow, with user "uerre" leaving a message: "I think her life was really tough. I hope she doesn't work so hard in her next life. Rest in peace."

■ Ai Iijima Complex

"Ai Iijima, I don't love you anymore!"

— Said by Andy Lau in the movie "Fat Choi Spirit," standing by the sea shouting loudly.

"Lately been quite bothered, more bothered than you, more bothered than you. I dreamed of having dinner with Ai Iijima. The restaurant in the dream was too dimly lit, and I couldn't find the blue pill."

— Sung by Li Zongsheng in "Lately Been Quite Bothered."

"The whole world says loving Ai Iijima isn't love"

— A song by Hacken Lee, simply titled "Ai Iijima World."

Sexy Queen, Once Extremely Popular

■ Ai Iijima's Life

October 31, 1972 Born in Kameido, Koto Ward, Tokyo, real name Ogasawara Matsue;

1992 Participated in the "Thong Little Ai" segment of Tokyo Broadcasting System's late-night program "Tokyo Erotic Tribe," becoming famous overnight and entering the Japanese entertainment industry. Her stage name "Iijima" comes from Iijima Naoko, the president of the same agency whom Ai Iijima greatly admired. Afterward, she continued to pursue a sexy image;

1993 Released her first single "Secret DE Love! Love!";

October 2000 Published the novel "Platonic Love," which sold millions of copies in Japan and was a bestseller at the time. This semi-autobiographical book detailed her experiences of running away from home, shooting AV tapes, etc., and was later adapted into films and TV dramas. "Platonic Love" marked the turning point for Ai Iijima's transition from the AV industry to mainstream development, where she later became a TV host after retiring from AV acting;

2001 Played the role of Spider Demon in the Chinese TV series "The Monkey King" starring Charlie Yeung. From then on, she refused to shoot new AV videos;

March 3, 2007 Japanese newspaper "Sports Nippon" reported that Ai Iijima retired from the Japanese entertainment industry due to health issues such as hay fever, back pain, kidney dysfunction, and cystitis;

February 24, 2008 Ai Iijima announced on her personal blog that she had contracted Helicobacter pylori (bacterial infection leading to gastritis, gastric ulcers, and duodenal ulcers), and mentioned that she had been taking antidepressants for nearly two months to combat mental illness;

December 24, 2008 Found dead at her home in Sakuragaoka, Shibuya, Tokyo, cause of death under investigation.

Retired for a Year, Rumors Persist

■ Farewell to the Entertainment Industry

In March 2007, Ai Iijima announced her retirement, bringing a 15-year career in the entertainment industry to a close. She then emphasized on her blog that she would not return to the entertainment circle, and both TBS and Fuji TV produced specials to bid her farewell. The reason given by Ai Iijima's agency for her retirement was poor health, including kidney dysfunction, which caused unbearable pain during urination.

Although she retired, rumors outside continued to disturb Ai Iijima. Many speculated that she had AIDS, others said she planned to get pregnant and have children, while some rumors claimed that due to a male manager from her agency embezzling nearly 100 million yen from the company without being found, Ai Iijima got involved in financial disputes and had to leave the entertainment industry. Some media pointed out that Ai Iijima was implicated in the once sensational "concrete burial murder case" in Japan, as she had admitted that the main perpetrator in the case was her ex-boyfriend, and since the perpetrator might soon be paroled, Ai Iijima decided to retire out of sentimentality.

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