If I tell you now that a 33-year-old man is madly in love with a girl only 22 years old, would you believe it? Of course, whether you believe it or not is up to you. But let me tell you, on that day, when I was walking alone on the capital's streets feeling a bit bored, I felt as if I were looking for something. To be honest, since I left home and came to Beijing, making a living as a freelance writer, I have never felt so lonely. Of course, unless you've experienced it yourself, you can't possibly imagine how lonely it feels. Although it's not exactly the loneliness of wandering alone at the ends of the earth, this kind of solitary journey in the capital city is tough enough.